I wrote last time without a lot of expectations, just cleared a lot of things off of my chest. There's still a lot hanging over me like a nasty dark cloud waiting to break, but I mean, that's just kinda how life goes sometimes and I know that. But things are still strange to me when it comes to the everyday going-ons in my life. Things that are simple that most people wouldn't notice, but I see these things and have to spend at least some time pondering over them. I have to force myself most of the time to just let them go and figure that if more odd things happen in relation, then, I'll start to consider it a little deeper.
As of late the 'odd' stuff mainly died down, but it's starting to pick back up again in small ways. Well not completely small, like I said I notice damn near everything that goes on. Especially since I've been left home alone a lot as of late due to my uncle being hospitalized. It's gotten on my nerves pretty badly being left home alone so much and being so far overdue with my son. I have no idea when I could fully go into labor and the last thing I want is to be left home alone and it happen.
But I got a message from a friend of mine who has spoken with my Spirit Guardian who I have never myself made literal contact with as she has. But she seems to be highly sensitive to these sorts of beings and I'm glad to have her as a friend, I still need to figure out a way to properly repay her for all that she's done for me. But either way she sends me a message and tells me Artazic(my Guardian) has given her a message to relay to me: "You will meet your Fate in 3 days." It sounds so simple and maybe it really is nothing more than the simple fact that I will have my son in 3 days, I could meet my Soul Mate in 3 days, or something Very Big may occur in my life in 3 days that I could never have imagined. But either way, it could have a much deeper meaning, it may not mean 3 days at all, but rather be like a bit of a puzzle. I'm not totally sure, but by the looks of it since I pulled out my cards it looks like a relationship, and not my son. There are cards that easily denote childbirth and none of those were present, but rather the ones that directly connect to a 'love' relationship. A little hard to believe but that's what they say.
I'm for the most part at least going to keep my eyes peeled because tomorrow is day 2 and see what happens on day 3. He could have simply just meant as he said, but it seems strange to me because most of my life has never quite been that easy. But I always have to over analyze everything because I'm a**l that way. Stupid trait of being a Gemini...
But that's not the only thing going on which I think is why I'm having so much trouble...little things catch my eye like I said, you ever light a small candle the flame rises nearly a foot from the tiny little thing?! I've never in my life had that happen before and the wick wasn't even that big, I know a larger/longer wick will give you a taller flame but this one rose up at least 7 to 8 inches and then slowly receded to it's normal size. All of my candles have been reacting strangely. There's no breeze or flow of air in my room, but they'll bend and flicker in strange ways as though there's a breeze blowing on them. My cards are suddenly very restless and want to be constantly used and give me odd messages that I'm still trying to fully interpret. I have a set of Rune in which I am consistently pulling out the same Rune over and over. It has nothing to do with the feel of the stone, besides the draw to it when my hand is in the bag. I don't look at the bag when I draw so it's not that. The Rune I am consistently pulling out is basically summed up to 'Home' a new beginning, a fresh start and revival of something that went through harsh times.
I'm trying not to take it certain ways and see it broadly as something else, but I keep coming back to a certain thought which I have done nothing more than continuously tried to push out of my mind. I did questions a few others who do readings multiple times and seriously I don't get it. The last time I went through this kind of problem I was told to let it go and walk away, this time all I'm getting is don't give up, things will get better and turn around, stand my ground and don't let anyone tell me otherwise. It's got me so confused. I thought at first it was just my cards but it's not that almost irritates me. I don't want to see those things, but at the same time I do. So I don't know exactly where to stand. Already some timing is off if it is indeed correct. But I don't know what to do. I wish there was someone I could go to and know for 100% that I will get a totally accurate reading that will give me some damn good details that I haven't already been given.
I've been put through so much and I'm just ready for it all to be over with and just sit back to relax. I'm done fighting with people and arguing because it's doing nothing but driving me up a wall and I'm done with it. I just want to relax and be able to breathe without someone breathing down my neck and hassling me left and right! Hell, I was surprised tonight that my dad up and offered to walk up and grab me some chinese if I wanted it. I went for it since that NEVER happens and I have been really wanting some more chinese food since we had a big meal of it like a week and a half ago. I just got an order of fried dumplings tonight but that was enough for me.
Either way, I think I better just leave this where it is...I could go on and on if I don't stop myself and end with with an even more terrifying entry than I could ever imagine.
As of late the 'odd' stuff mainly died down, but it's starting to pick back up again in small ways. Well not completely small, like I said I notice damn near everything that goes on. Especially since I've been left home alone a lot as of late due to my uncle being hospitalized. It's gotten on my nerves pretty badly being left home alone so much and being so far overdue with my son. I have no idea when I could fully go into labor and the last thing I want is to be left home alone and it happen.
But I got a message from a friend of mine who has spoken with my Spirit Guardian who I have never myself made literal contact with as she has. But she seems to be highly sensitive to these sorts of beings and I'm glad to have her as a friend, I still need to figure out a way to properly repay her for all that she's done for me. But either way she sends me a message and tells me Artazic(my Guardian) has given her a message to relay to me: "You will meet your Fate in 3 days." It sounds so simple and maybe it really is nothing more than the simple fact that I will have my son in 3 days, I could meet my Soul Mate in 3 days, or something Very Big may occur in my life in 3 days that I could never have imagined. But either way, it could have a much deeper meaning, it may not mean 3 days at all, but rather be like a bit of a puzzle. I'm not totally sure, but by the looks of it since I pulled out my cards it looks like a relationship, and not my son. There are cards that easily denote childbirth and none of those were present, but rather the ones that directly connect to a 'love' relationship. A little hard to believe but that's what they say.
I'm for the most part at least going to keep my eyes peeled because tomorrow is day 2 and see what happens on day 3. He could have simply just meant as he said, but it seems strange to me because most of my life has never quite been that easy. But I always have to over analyze everything because I'm a**l that way. Stupid trait of being a Gemini...
But that's not the only thing going on which I think is why I'm having so much trouble...little things catch my eye like I said, you ever light a small candle the flame rises nearly a foot from the tiny little thing?! I've never in my life had that happen before and the wick wasn't even that big, I know a larger/longer wick will give you a taller flame but this one rose up at least 7 to 8 inches and then slowly receded to it's normal size. All of my candles have been reacting strangely. There's no breeze or flow of air in my room, but they'll bend and flicker in strange ways as though there's a breeze blowing on them. My cards are suddenly very restless and want to be constantly used and give me odd messages that I'm still trying to fully interpret. I have a set of Rune in which I am consistently pulling out the same Rune over and over. It has nothing to do with the feel of the stone, besides the draw to it when my hand is in the bag. I don't look at the bag when I draw so it's not that. The Rune I am consistently pulling out is basically summed up to 'Home' a new beginning, a fresh start and revival of something that went through harsh times.
I'm trying not to take it certain ways and see it broadly as something else, but I keep coming back to a certain thought which I have done nothing more than continuously tried to push out of my mind. I did questions a few others who do readings multiple times and seriously I don't get it. The last time I went through this kind of problem I was told to let it go and walk away, this time all I'm getting is don't give up, things will get better and turn around, stand my ground and don't let anyone tell me otherwise. It's got me so confused. I thought at first it was just my cards but it's not that almost irritates me. I don't want to see those things, but at the same time I do. So I don't know exactly where to stand. Already some timing is off if it is indeed correct. But I don't know what to do. I wish there was someone I could go to and know for 100% that I will get a totally accurate reading that will give me some damn good details that I haven't already been given.
I've been put through so much and I'm just ready for it all to be over with and just sit back to relax. I'm done fighting with people and arguing because it's doing nothing but driving me up a wall and I'm done with it. I just want to relax and be able to breathe without someone breathing down my neck and hassling me left and right! Hell, I was surprised tonight that my dad up and offered to walk up and grab me some chinese if I wanted it. I went for it since that NEVER happens and I have been really wanting some more chinese food since we had a big meal of it like a week and a half ago. I just got an order of fried dumplings tonight but that was enough for me.
Either way, I think I better just leave this where it is...I could go on and on if I don't stop myself and end with with an even more terrifying entry than I could ever imagine.
