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The Fallen, The Forgotten and The Failed |
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Here I lay, in utter and complete solitude, no friends, no one to care for, just alone. With this seemingly inpenetrable dark shroud surrounding my life, I wonder... what is my purpose of being?
Of those whom I care for, none have stayed by my side, for those whom i would die for, my purpose is just that. It seems as though i am a fallen angel, cast down by god, only to serve others as a vessel of hate and biast. For this I am the fallen.
For those who knew me as someone different, this is the true me, lonely and desolate, afraid and confused. My thoughts once mattered, now they are mocked or ignored, fruitless in an attempt to help, because there is no care for myself, only others. For this I am the forgotten.
My life was eventful at one point, now there is only solitude and hate. I have tried time and time again to understand what my purpose is, but in the end there is no true answer, only error. I am but human, and we all make mistakes, mine are unforgivable, no remorse for what I have done. For this I am the failed.
The true failed one resides in my heart, for no one can conquer him, there can be no emotion inside when the world does nothing but preach and hate. There are some like me, but none to my level. This feeling and sight is incomprehensible to some, but I know the truth behind all.
Why hate what you do not understand? Why preach to those who in the end do nothing to listen?
Why am I the one to be chosen to live alone for all eternity? To be the one that is the failed? The forgotten? The fallen? For I do not know the answers.
Why does my soul sink whenever emotion is involved?
This fire in my soul and heart will burn forever, even in the end the light cannot peirce my soul. For I have been blackened by all my experiences, not to be loved or cared for till the end.
The end comes for all at some point, my end will not come soon enough, for I am doomed to walk this Earth alone for all eternity.
Why have I been cast down? Why have I been forgotten? Most important of all, why have I been demmed the failed one? This I do not know, for there are no answers!
The end is near for you, i can feel it, will you tell me what its like, to be remembered, to be loved, to have meaning?
For I shall never know.
Ascended_Nightmare · Wed Nov 12, 2008 @ 02:41am · 2 Comments |
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