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How can I possibly be everything you want me to? Cut me to pieces. Apparently, I can't be the actress and still work on the newspaper staff. Obviously, I can't be the strong-willed fighter and a shoulder to cry on. Everyone comes to me with their problems as if I'm a diary that will stay locked forever. When you come sobbing to me about the fact that you ******** your boyfriend, I'm not going to truthfully tell you that everything's all right. I am getting a bit too tired of giving everyone what they want to hear. For once I just want to look at them and say, "You're ******** stupid. Just shut the hell up and deal with your own problems. You made the mistake, there's no going back. So cry me a river, build me a bridge, and jump off of it."
Listen, I love you all, I really do, but I can't be your scapegoat. You need to deal with your own mistakes, not try to push them upon me. Of course I am always there for advice, but don't always expect me to say, "The right thing." If you truly want my opinion, then you have no right to get mad at me for stating it. And I do admit, I am a hypocrite about many different things, but I have my reasons to be. In my short life of 16 years, I've been through more than most people go through in a life of 60. When I go find a random man to have a fun time with, I know what I'm doing. I know how to take care of myself. I may look like a quirky bubbly teenager, but I have a brain that Freud would fall in love with. I accept my own consequences. Also, I tend to date men that I don't see in school because they are that, men. My problems are beyond the high school drama that your lives seem to focus around.
People like you don't usually look to the future. Everyone says that high school doesn't matter, but if you go around acting like an ignorant whore, than you will become one in the future. Every choice you make has a butterfly effect on the rest of the world. So if you keep telling me, "But he makes me happy," then I'll probably want to respond, "Will he make you happy when you come up positive for STDs and are forced to live in a trailer park while you raise your accidental child?"
If you ask for my opinion, you'll get it. I can be your best friend if you just accept your own mistakes. You can't cut me to pieces. I can't be everything you'd ever want in a person. My arms can hold gently, but my tongue can snap roughly. My hips can thrust, but my legs can also run. My heart can cry, but my eyes can burn. And my emotions can cover you while my mind can rip you apart.
If you want so badly for me to accept who you are, then you need to accept who I am. If you can tell me that everyone makes mistakes, then I can make mistakes too. And I will make mistakes. It is so easy to cut me to pieces, but with every piece taken away, you lose a true piece of me. If you want a perfect person, then cut away my love that I have for you, for all of you. If I yell at you for making stupid choices, then it's only because I want you to be happy. Cut away the compassion to hear what you want to. Cut me to pieces because I love all the pieces of you.
Miss Pandora 12 · Fri Dec 22, 2006 @ 08:07pm · 0 Comments |
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I'm not like everyone else, so I must be a loser. I'm homosexual, so I must have AIDS. I'm not christian, so I must be "evil" and not have any morals. I am liberal, so I must be a homosexual, drug addict vegetarian. I'm Irish, so I must have a bad drinking problem. I wear skirts a lot, so I must want people to get in them. I'm young so I must be naive. I'm blonde, so I must be stupid. I'm not a virgin, so I must be an easy whore. I fell in love with a marired man, so I must be a home-wrecking whore. I dress oddly, so I must be looking for attention. I have a bunch of friends who are men, so I must be ******** them all. I wear what I want, so I must be a poser. I'm bisexual, so I must think every girl I see is hot. I'm a girl who actually eats lunch, so I must be fat.
Miss Pandora 12 · Sat Dec 16, 2006 @ 12:14am · 0 Comments |
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The first amendment clearly states freedom of expression. Should this not include sexual orientation? How is it just to pass laws against the right of gay marriage? If two people love each other, they should be given the same rights as anyone else on this earth. Idaho residents will soon decide whether or not to ban gay marriage and other nontraditional domestic unions. Bans similar to this have already been passed in over 20 states this year. Including Idaho, eight states will vote on the same ban in November. One of the greatest aversions to the thoughts of two members of the same sex is the thought of raising children. Many men and women think that two men could never properly mother a child, nor could two women father a child. Yet many of the people who are led to believe such a thing are some of the many Americans that are raising children as a single parent. The family unit is vital to a healthy society and does need to be strong, but thinking that the failings of heterosexual couples and their families can be fixed by furthering an already existing ban on same-sex marriage, as well as domestic partnerships and civil unions for heterosexual couples, is dodging responsibility. Two people of the same sex may be together for a number of years. One partner could already have children and the two could raise them together. Yet if the blood related parent of the children were to die, then they would be given to either a blood relative or put into foster care without a say from the other partner they now see as a parent. This is only because the couple could not be legally bonded. Just because of that one simple law, afamily could be torn apart. Love is the thing that makes a true family. Just because the family of another may have a different structure than the television white picket fence does not make them any less of a family. This law is discriminatory toward human rights. If laws like this could be passed, then what is to say that America could not form a new holocaust for homosexuals? The purpose of marriage is clearly to bond together two people legally. This ceremony has always held religious value as well as legal, yet religion and state are supposed to be separated from each other. Should the boundaries of the bible conflict a union of love? If love is one of the most sacred acts, then why is a bond between two men or women instantaneously labeled as bad by the general public? A couple that is living together should be able to go out and legally define who gets the insurance benefits and estate if one of the persons was to pass away. Sexual orientation should have nothing to do with that. Social security benefits to a surviving partner are limited only to married couples. Despite the "strong" bonds between a man and woman, the divorce rates in recent decades have risen to the highest level ever seen in the United States. Clearly, there are problems in the ever-so holy heterosexual marriages. In any state in America, it is legal to get married and then have the marriage divorced at any point in time afterwards. Heterosexual couples have the right to marry at will and break apart from each other when "the passion dies," as if it was just a game. That does not seem like a very holy bond if one can easily get divorced through the signing of documents.
Miss Pandora 12 · Wed Dec 13, 2006 @ 01:26am · 0 Comments |
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I realized something today. Every time you post a jounal entry or write messages, you get gold. Therefore, would it be wise to just keep typing up pointless journal entries and make dual accounts to mail yourself back and forth? Just a suggestion. Also, one goes to the arena and judges a picture at a 10 (no matter how bad it is), every ten seconds or so, then you don't have to spend two hours attempting to fish to get the same amount of money. They there is the good ol' bribary system. For those of us with credits cards or parents who thing that good parenting involves getting their brat everything they want, "gift credits" are available on purchase. It's almost worth it to use the Christmas money from dear old Grandma to give your avatar a make-over.
Miss Pandora 12 · Sun Dec 10, 2006 @ 06:53am · 0 Comments |
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Musicals, gotta love 'em and hate 'em at the same time. People think the theater is a non-conformist society, but that's not really true. The people are non-conformist, but you must conform to a certain role and play is as the director wants it. And if the director wants you to stand in the back while his untalented daughter stands at the front and dances like a slut, so be it. I'm an amazing musical actress... until you get to the music part. So, I can't sing and have no comprehension of key changes in my own voice. But I can sure as hell tell that the lead characters in the musical can't even get the words right, not alone the key. At least I can stop the effects of puberty for one scene and not have a voice crack right in the middle of a heart-felt song. Well, it could be worse, I could still have to try and dance. So at least when I'm standing in the back, I get to wave a flag instead of try to do idiotic dance movies copied from the movie.
Miss Pandora 12 · Sun Dec 10, 2006 @ 06:49am · 0 Comments |
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All right, this is a site for children, people. I've been getting comments back on that with people saying that it's a site for 13 and up, but there are kids younger than that on here and 13 isn't really all that old. I just want to know what the hell is up with all the kids in the towns coming up to people wanting to cyber. We're posting as cute little anime style avatars, not sex slaves.Give it a rest, you get absolutely no pleasure from tormenting other people on the internet. Of course you can think back on it and masturbate, but with that attitude your own hand is the only thing ever touching you. No one wants to sleep with an idiot who goes up to kids online and starts a conversation by saying, "Suck it, b***h." So get a dirty magazine and let the kids be.
Miss Pandora 12 · Tue Nov 21, 2006 @ 02:36am · 0 Comments |
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Gaia, the Earth. Being Wicca, Gaia is the one thing that I truly believe in. But let's not get deep and technical here. I found this site due to the fact that a woman my mother worked with wanted me to check out this site and keep an eye out for her 12-year-old daughter. She's one of those women who thinks the internet is an ultimate evil that will consume the youth of America into illegal activities. Also, apparently, she strongly believes that everyone who randomly talks to you online is a sick ***** looking for intercourse. Well ladies, right now I could be a naked man in his 40's just waiting to get a piece of innocent action. But it's very hard to believe that anyone who can access the internet could be considered innocent. A little girl could go on google looking for pictures of their favorite television cartoon show and end up getting emails from hot girls with breast implants looking for a good time. That just proves a point that parental controls are useless against us, therefore they should either be eliminated or we should just not be allowed online altogether, because there is no possible way to censor our minds from everything the world has to offer. So, to end my opening, I'm the Panda. Unless you have some possible way of spying on me through government satellites, you have no idea who I am in the real world. Maybe I am that disgustingly middle-aged *****, or a little girl in the 4th grade with a good English teacher. Anyone who attempts to talk to me may find me to be a crazed teenage fangirl, but that's besides the point.
~The Panda~
Miss Pandora 12 · Wed Aug 09, 2006 @ 06:22am · 0 Comments |
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