I feel like a failure today.

I looked back into my rental history and it turns out that I never signed a contract? This sucks because it means I have no rental history. I'm not sure where to go from here. Maybe I should ask my parents to co-sign for me? I have no clue, not really.

On top of that, my base of sanity is at risk. My phone is having issues syncing with my music. This is a huge issue. My itunes in general has been a b*tch for a long time but I haven't had the guts to reboot it until now. f*ck. I really don't want to mess things up any worse than they are. I know things can get worse. I really hope it doesn't come to that. Please don't get all buggered...

Boyfriend is gone, in Hawaii for the holidays. f*ck Thanksgiving. It's always trigger time for me. f*ck it. His shirt doesn't have his scent anymore. I was sleeping with it beside me, but now I have lost him. It is inspiring me to continue working on the Boyfriend book. It only proves that I'm super lonely :[