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Kiriai
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 @ 10:28pm
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Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2007 @ 09:48pm
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+ Free Falling
Since my Internet has been on the fritz, on my laptop at least, I'm stuck with our main computer. Which means no FanFiction, no MySpace, no Blogger, or any other random sites I usually go to. Gaia and Neopets and Yahoo. Oh joy.
But, you know what? It's been pretty good not having MySpace around. You never know how addicted you get to something until you're unable to get to it. And let me tell you - I'm crazy addicted to MySpace. It's sad, really. I was always checking my inbox to see if anyone left me a comment, or messaged me, or viewed my page. I was always posting bulletins and blogs and pictures, and all for what? My own personal entertainment, I guess.
I know it sounds weird, but it's really been such a huge relief to not have that constant worry that someone is trying to talk to you online and you're not there to respond, or give comments back to other people. And I haven't been on the computer much since my laptop decided to be crazy, which is good. I've been reading, writing (I do get online to roleplay, however), listening to some more music, practicing the piano more often, and just the other day, I picked up my guitar and learned 3 new songs for our Youth band in just one hour! And I even do chores now!
Haha, I sound like a freakin' ex-crack addict who got saved by the Lord right after they got out of jail.
But it's a nice feeling to feel.
=]
+ Kiriai
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Kiriai
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Kiriai
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Posted: Wed Jan 10, 2007 @ 08:55pm
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+ The Many Names of Kiriai
1. Your name: + Sarah
2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first three letters of your name, plus izzle) + Sarizzle
3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal) + Black Cat
4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, and current street name) + Renee Birkenhead
5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 3 letters of dad's name) + Woosadou
6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink) + Red Water ((o__O Whoah.. COOL!))
7. IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 3rd letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of you moms middle name, 1st letter of a siblings first name, last letter of your moms middle name) + Aononme
8. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (your middle name) + Renee
9. GOTH NAME: (3rd favorite color, and the name of one your pets) + White Penny
I made myself LOL. biggrin
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Posted: Wed Oct 25, 2006 @ 02:30am
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+Thus, Depression/
Being depressed isn't really my thing. And when it hits me, I try not to show it, but it hits me hard because I rarely experience depression (as if it's a real "disease" wink .
Today was great. I had loads of fun, a sub in Spanish, and figured out just how many friends I really have.
But the bus ride home was different. The song "Wake Me Up When September Ends" blasts into my earbuds, and into my ears, and I begin to think of all of the memories I had with one of my closest friends. These memories caused other memories to pop into my head, memories I hate to think of. They make me want to steal Dumbledore's pensieve and deposit them in it forevermore. But I can't. So I was forced to re-live these moments in my head, and as each second passed, I began to feel crappier and crappier, until I thought I would cry. And to make matters worse, the only person who really understands everything I'm talking about wouldn't answer his phone, and he never called today, even though he promised. But he's worlds away, in New Jersey, and probably has better things to do than to listen to me mope on about something we've both tried to forget. But this same subject re-occurs in our converstions sometimes, and we can't do anything but talk about how horrible it was, how horrible I felt, and how he did everything to help me deal with the matter at hand.
Since he's moved (February), these things have found their way to the back of my memory bank, and I try to think of them as rarely as possible. But it was inevitable today. And I can't help but feel almost hopeless, because I know the hatred wants to boil up and explode in the face of the person who brought about these memories, and hatred is a feeling I'd rather not feel. I'd love to be happy with everything in the world. I'd love to never hate a soul, and I can probably say I don't at the moment, even though I claim I do. But I've always wanted to hate this person, and I can't. He has a way with words, with life, with actions, and I find myself enjoying his presence, even though I know he knows he's betrayed me, let me down, lied to me, stabbed me in the back.
And no amount of words from my loverly in New Jersey is ever going to change my feelings for this person. I hate this person, but I can't help but love him all the same. Why? I don't know. I wish God could explain this to me, I wish I could ask any of my friends and not be afraid or even ashamed or embarassed, I wish confusion weren't even a real word, not even in the innocent game of Pokemon.
Maybe I'll have a superfantastic day tomorrow. I really hope so.
+sarah/
P.S. Sorry for the craptacular depression mode. If you hate it, I hate it a million times worse. Just smile at me the next time you see me, and I'll know you care, that you love me, that you'll be there for me. And pray that this phase only lasts for no more than maybe a couple of hours.
P.S.S. It may seem a bit confusing, but I am talking about two different people in this, as well as myself. Two guys, one me. Pathetic, no?
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Kiriai
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Kiriai
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Posted: Mon Sep 11, 2006 @ 12:31am
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Posted: Thu Jul 28, 2005 @ 02:38am
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Kiriai
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