As im sure many of you know by now or at least thoughs of you who know me I am expecting a little one in May...
Its hard being 19 even though it is with the one I love and hold dear, the same guy I've been with for over a year now. But the baby will be loved, by not only me and my hunny, but my family as well...
This baby will be the 5th generation alive on BOTH sides of our families... The jewel of everyones eye im sure.
But wow to have 5 generations alive is a rare and very special thing.
I am just about 5 months along now, and the size of a small village. Although I must say the first ultra sound I had at 8 weeks I cried.....
To see something so small and so special growning inside you is an amazing thing, seeing its lil heart beat and to see it move slightly for the first time.... It's too much to explain in words, but im sure other mothers know the feeling well.
My next ultra sound is at 20 weeks on December 26th, the day after Christmas... what an incredable gift.... I get to find out if its a boy or a girl for Christmas crying
Its been such a hard road... I moved back to Chicago away from my Mom and Dad, and the love of my life Andrew...only to find out 2 weeks after I moved that i was pregnant.
I stayed out here simply because I can get the best care here and I have the rest of my family to rely on....
My family is one of thoughs families where we stick together no matter what... and to have them to fall back on is a gift...
Even though being separated from the babies father is one of the hardest things I've had to endure... Not having him by my side to help me and to feel the baby move... I wouldnt have it any other way at the moment...
But my cousin... As a present to Andrew and I, offered to put Andrew up into a hotel so he can be out here with me for the ultra sound, I gave him a huge hug and began to cry infront of him.... I NEVER cry infront of family...
Me and my cousin are pretty close, and for him to do this for us, is just..... I cant even describe it, a gift from an angel crying ....
Even though I know there is no Santa I believe for just a moment... my cousin became him.... reaching into my deepest thoughts instantly knowing that to have My love here with me for Christmas is the only thing I truely wanted...
This is the best Christmas....
May yours be as Merry!!.... heart
~Vampire_Mistress_Kitten~ · Mon Dec 11, 2006 @ 04:20am · 1 Comments |