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Diary, sometimes I think you're the only one who understands |
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Dear Diary, Mood: apethetic... So, I still haven't done anything. I need to finish painting my room and do some other stuff, but so far all I've accomplished is watching Will and Grace. I did play the Pokemon game though. That's so boring, it's fun!
Chuckgirl · Mon Jul 31, 2006 @ 08:19pm · 0 Comments |
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Apparently school starts in another two-and-a-half weeks. That's kinda cool... where did summer go to? It's been really short. Anyways, I have band camp this week, so that should be kinda fun. I'm gonna have to start using my Gaia journal again, since I can't access my stupid xanga anymore... or my myspace. Damn Internet filters.
Chuckgirl · Mon Jul 31, 2006 @ 02:16am · 0 Comments |
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I forgot completly that Gaia existed... So to bring ourselves to an update, and complete coverage of my sophmore year here we go: ............................................ Let's see..... uh.... Well.... Okay nothing really exciting happend. There was that whole Adam thing. I had the biggest crush on him, months later I tell, but oh damn it all he's gay. s**t my luck.... I think I got over that. It's just all those wasted months of denial that get to me. You know, I've actually looked back at my years of high school and all the crushes I've had... and so far, all those guys have been gay. I've counted, six of them. I'm pretty much screwed for the rest of my life. Zade tells me I have "Gay magic" only it works different than most because I turn people gay... Anywhores, summer sucks...
Chuckgirl · Thu Jun 22, 2006 @ 07:03pm · 0 Comments |
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I tried to dye my hair red.. And now it's just one flat dull boring shade of brown. Never again will I dye my hair.
Chuckgirl · Sat Nov 26, 2005 @ 11:14pm · 0 Comments |
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So, did everyone stuff themselves silly yesterday? And are we all going shopping today, to lose those 10 pounds we gained.... Hell no on my part. Ah well, have fun to the rest of you people.
Chuckgirl · Fri Nov 25, 2005 @ 03:21pm · 0 Comments |
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I'm still very cold, and it's raining outside. I'm bored out of my mind right now, and I have absolutly nothing to do. I'm also feeling very irritable right now, and I have no way of letting it out. I don't even know what's wrong. Why are people so heartless towards others? They don't realize how they're stepping on other people's feelings. It's even worse when it's your own parents. They just assume that it doesn't bother you, but when you've heard the comment a million times, it begins to wear on you. Why did you let me get this way? YOU could've stopped it. You could've taught me things to prevent me from being this way. Yeah, I should do stuff now, but when I was younger, did it ever occure to you that you should've helped me? And now you have the nerve to mention that I'm "fat"? And you do the same thing to the others too, all except for Chase. You don't seem to realize what effect it has on us. It hurts me, and I'm sure it does the others too,or it will when they get older and understand it better. Hope you've enjoyed making me this way. Have you ever thought that I might be suffering, fighting with myself? Obviously not. Shows how well you pay attention. Ha, you didn't even notice it back at it's worst point, and for me it was just a pit of blackness. But you never asked if anything was wrong, you probably would've brushed it aside anyways. If I had said my thoughts, like how I thought hurting myself would make it go away, would you have thought I was being stupid and silly. You'll never understand what it was for me... And you don't deserve to ever know.
Chuckgirl · Sat Oct 01, 2005 @ 07:07pm · 0 Comments |
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Oh, and to tell you about my day... |
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Well, not much happened. I wore my hair in my Halloween dealies(What? It's only a month away! Why aren't you getting ready yet?) And someone told me I looked Princess Laya-ish...And Banyo told my I looked funny.. So I stole his stand and gave him the crappy pogo-stick one. xd Ran throught the homecoming assembly, though it's really rather uneventful. We had FCA today, and Adam(I guess he was in stage-craft or something) ran up to me and was like "Why are you here with all the Jesus people?" "Because I am a Jesus people." I don't know why, but I found it rather funny. Also, I got a driving tip from dad this morining too. He was talking about getting his head lights fixed because the dim's were too bright, and how people will flash you. Your not supposed to do that, you could get a ticket... But yeah, he said that if anyone does flash you, if your brights aren't on to turn them on, then swerve over and run the person off the road rofl I almost died laughing... Thanks dad, I'll remember that when I go and get my license(In another ten years or so...)
Chuckgirl · Thu Sep 29, 2005 @ 12:02am · 0 Comments |
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Why is my house so bloody cold? I'm going to freeze to death in my sleep... I'm not ready to die gonk Frostbite is already working it's way into my finger tips.. It's not that much warmer outside either. I want the nice warm fall days. All the golden and red leaves swirling about like fire in the wind... And the nights with the black velvet skies and silver moons hanging like a discus and illuminating everything with a pale light, making everything all the more romantic. And the warm breezes blow, and the children of the night stalk about and steal the breath from you lungs, or the life from your throats. Ah, I'll be so happy when the leaves finally change.
Chuckgirl · Wed Sep 28, 2005 @ 11:40pm · 1 Comments |
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