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Maz Journal, because you guys are just so god damn lucky I am going to write my life on this site, woo

Right about now my Mood is aggravated, many reasons has caused this. Mainly my mother because she is a fat conceited lard who cant seem to get out of my face.... Hmm should I really write my thoughts on here? I dont know, I cant write in my dairies since my parents love to look through them and then go and ask a guidance counsellor if what I write about it normal...pah, and the computer has already been read through, because of my parents... but hey if I ever do anything irrational, this gives me a reason to smash the computer, mawhahahahaha
Sorry for any spelling mistakes, but its what is me, and you shouldnt be reading this if you want to complain. I made bread pudding today, yay and now I should go into the shower within ten minutes so I can have time to get ready before Josh comes over.
My problem, I have a big headache because I am annoyed with everything, usually this would be normal...well if it was two years ago, but now I hate everything, even the people I care about, I could care less now, I do not know why, its maybe a phase but I cant sleep through this for I snap at everyone. A lot of my friends think I am a b***h right now, and now they arent friends but they wont listen when I tell them to leave me alone, so ha, its their fault? and my loss..
Why did I start to have this problem? well I always had it with my parents, mainly because I hate them.... our personailties just clash... anyways back to everyone, i think tis because of my only best girlfriend (I usually hate a lot of girls....so I hang out with mainly guys except for one girl) she well now is a whore, and she wont open her eyes to the truth.... its ******** annoy,ing she became so full of herself too, well...not like it matters...everyone loves her anyways..so her ego is growing everday.... she arg, I am currently talking to her on msn, and I jsut want to bring a gun and shot her brains out... dont worry I probably wont, but its just how a annoyed I am.... Maybe I have a bad jealousy problem.... well we share the same best friends....well exbestfriends for me, arg arg arg arg I hate her, I hate who is she, some guy loves her, she just walks all over him like a rag, then she complains about him still liking her, as she is phoning him everynight, how is the guy suppose to get the big picture? she flirts with him constantly...well she flirts constantly with every guy... she wasnt like this before, people change, I cant wait until i graduate, I wil never see her again