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My mom finally caught me, Yes i'm a cutter never seems like it and she says i'm depressed.I can't talk to her about anything because I feel I will get hit when I tell her anything.I hear voices when I go to bed and I'm slowly going insain. I can't sloep at night and I'm hardly eating anything.She says shes gonna take me to counciling but i doubt it, because she says things that shes going to do and it never happens just like she said she'd stop partying she still does it, she's never home and makes my brother and sister worried, These voices in my head won't go away, I can't really talk to my dad (he live in Idaho) it wouldn't work out, I can't talk to my grandmother(mom's side) bacause she's in Idaho, Everyones in Idaho, and living with my mom ain't helping s**t it's driving me insain and i can't talk to her at all!Maybe I am going insain, I see things I hear things That no one sees or hears so i must be insain........And she's doing it to me, She's driving me this way.I hate it. stare Anywho thats me right now probbly going to counciling bacause I hate my mom and she thinks i'm depressed. sweatdrop Oh joy. stare

Okay this week i went to my mom's work right but i was bored and i couldn't do anything so i plaied with dogs even though i was close to my friend's school that i no longer go to i wanted to see them but saddly i never said anything.SO then my mom lets me die my hair blue and it turns out silver saddly but the good thing i got out of it is i got to talk to my friend Wolfox24.Even though she replaced me with anouther friend cry it doesn't mean i still have her as my number one buddy list.But i moved three times this year moving to three diffrent schools and wich means....I'm officially in the navy well not really but it seems like it.Now i have to go to a school with uniforms i hadn't had to dress up in a uniform since well sixth grade for half a semester and the wourld revolves around the sun(no really it does) but anyways silver hair'd girl out maybe i should die my avie's hair color too?eh?well got to go buh bai now!

Finally friday!whoot!So um yea To day I dress up like with all my friends and it was soooo hilarious because today was wacky or freaky friday(hey wasn't that the name of a movie?) but any how all my teachers are like so rude,Especially my math teacher Mr.Math ((not using real name afriad for using his realy name)) but anyways he yells at me for no reson NOT fair.But at 1st period today i found out that we were playing tug-of-war but any ways i was wearing gothic shoes(boots) with shirt and etc,THen all of a sudden it's 8th grade girls (me and my friends) against 7th grade girls so we hitched this plan up to let go on three right?So yea we got to 3 and we all let go!IT was so funny i was literally laughing when we were forced to run a mile,But it was worth it right?Eh then there was science nothing much happened there a test chemical reaction we got to play with fire ((well not really but i think so!)).Then band I had a bit of fun but since i found out i was moving i was bumed like any other person so you try your best but for soem reson some times it doesn't work out right so you hit all the wronge notes and hide it pretty well.Well thats how it was and for 4 period (language arts) it was borning we had to read a book i already read at my old school so whats the fun in that.THen lunch came around and guess what they dress this guy up (a friend of mine) up a s a girl in 1st period P.E so then they grab tissue and stuff his shirt.Very funny.I never found out what happend.Bu anyways When 5 period came around i was so tired i was sleep walking to class.Except for giggling here and there from my friend dressed as a girl.lol she such a nut.But anyways.I found out that we had to take a test Yet again and i was tired of tests but i took it anyways and found out alot after reading my book Shogun(i'm like only on the 8th chapet but theres alot of words for just one page and so much small freaking written words!)But finally i get to the last period of the day and he just throws me off with a pop quiz(boy oh boy) yes a pop math quiz Which i was ready for...MUHAHAHAHAHA!can't scare me.But yea a very very long day but i also had to walk home the ground was wet BUT! I had my boots MUHAHAHAHA!thank you freaky friday thing but ya now i'm bored and i'm gonna do somthing more....i dunno maybe i'll check my email.eh whatever end of this thing um...okay lets turn this thing off ((yes i know i'm talking to myself whee and i like to so HA!))

My friend Wolfox24 finally contacted me more like i contacted her but still things are still as they are sopose to be 3nodding and yuki is still my thing yea

Today everyone was nice to me.I even got to see Fantom Of The Opera.I loved it i think i shall see it again when i have the chance buts it's getting late and i beleve i shall go to bed soon.

~nanineko~
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