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I am not Gaia's target audience.

I'm too old, too curmudgeonly, and too aware of the world outside of my own head.

I joined Gaia for one specific purpose -- the Shattered Moons RP guild -- because it reminded me of something I once enjoyed and I wanted to get back in touch with that. An old friend is one of the key members, and in general I just enjoy RP and character building. I didn't come here for the social network or the kewl loot.

Unfortunately, papa's gotta build himself a proper avatar, and I keep finding myself sidetracked by the whistles and bells (like tattoos -- I have no idea why I want all of the tattoos, but I know I do). In the process of picking up the items necessary to make Rook look like Rook, I am getting caught up in the stuff that goes on here.

Which makes me tired. I am so, so tired of children.

Solipsistic, vapid, narcissistic little submorons infest this place with their entitlement and their exhibitionism, post-whoring and living cliches I left behind well before I was old enough to buy cigarettes. Whiny, twee, disjointed posts abound, making inside references as if we're following their lives serially. No reference points, no asides, no summaries -- it's all just me-now-this. I'm so, so tired of it.

Seriously, you think I'm a jerk and an a*****e? Fine. I'm absolutely worthy of those labels. I'm under no illusions as to what kind of person I am, socially. I look at that and think, "Well, at least I'm not a self-absorbed p***k asking everyone to look at him and care about what new, tasteless little song is sooooooo awesome or what flash in the pan celebrity is totally kewt". I don't even think anyone's going to read my opinion on the subject; anyone reading this journal entry is wasting their time. I'm venting, and I think it's going to net me gold -- what's your excuse?