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I'm pissed off right now. My mother's promised to take me to Hot Topic about eight times. Each time, she's broken that promise. She always claims she's either tired or just doesn't want to leave the house. If she's tired, I can understand it. She's been under a lot of stress lately. But still, it's no reason to break a promise. She always gets onto me, stressing the fact that I should keep my promises. And, I do. The only time I've ever broken a promise is when I was in a gang. But, at that time, I wasn't thinking that what I was doing was the wrong thing. I was thinking that it was a way to become a part of a family - even if it weren't a blood family. I was terribly wrong in thinking that. I know that know. And, I've turned my life around. Granted, the past still haunts me. But, the past is something that haunts everyone. It's something that we should get over. But, yet, we can't. We went to my counsolers' office today for one of my appointments. Mrs. Sainker pissed my mother off. She defended me when my mother was complaining about what I wear, and about the fact that I'm Goth. Honestly, I agree with what Mrs. Sainker said. Because I know for a fact that I am being myself. I'm not copying anyone. I'm not making myself out to be someone I'm not. I can't bring myself to do any of that anyhow. It simply isn't me. Afterwards, I asked my mother - very politely, may I add - if we could still go to Hot Topic. She snapped at me. Now, I'm not someone who shows tears in front of people. It's only happened twice. But, still, I came very close to crying there. Now, for those of you who know me well enough, you can probably imagine how much I wanted a punching bag at that moment...Thankfully, I've got one here at home.
They want me to keep from getting depressed..How can I if they always break their promises and keep me in the dark all the time? It's impossible. Even for someone who's been as emotionally hurt as I have.
Eternal_Hell3073 · Fri Aug 05, 2005 @ 01:15am · 2 Comments |
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My mother might be leaving work earlier than normal today. I just checked my glucosamine level and it was in the 40's. crying No wonder I woke up starving and dizzy and all that s**t. Anyhow, I've already eaten something. Now, all I've gotta do is wait for my body to convert it into glucose/sugar. It should start rising in about ten to twenty minutes. Maybe less. Afterwards, I'm going for a walk. I'm tired of being stuck inside because Jared keeps walking by the ******** house. If I run into him, I know what'll be coming. But right now, I don't care what happens. Just as long as I can get out of the house for a little while.
Eternal_Hell3073 · Wed Jul 27, 2005 @ 04:28pm · 1 Comments |
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It's been a while since I've posted daily, I know. Sorry for that too. I've just got a bunch of s**t going on around here. I had to create another AIM screen name because some guy keeps harrassing me. And, blocking him doesn't seem to work very well. stare The new one's Black Kalipso.
http://www.xanga.com/firekeeper3073/
Eternal_Hell3073 · Tue Jul 26, 2005 @ 08:54pm · 0 Comments |
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Things haven't been right lately. I keep feelin' like somethin's wrong. Which, somethin' probably is. I just can't figure out what. I haven't seen my parents in a long time, but I know they're alright. After all, it's normal for me to not see them for long periods of time. They're usually busy with their own lives and their jobs. They don't have much time to fit their goth daughter into their lives. The only times I usually see my mother is when she takes me to piano practice. That's only once a week. *shrugs* Oh well. You get used to those kind of things.
Eternal_Hell3073 · Sat Jul 09, 2005 @ 12:29am · 0 Comments |
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Hey everyone. 'sup? I'm over at a friends' house right now. I've gotta get offline in about fiveteen minutes, so I'll make this seriously quick. I've been feelin' extreamly weird - I've been seriously calm lately. That's odd for me. I can't seem to bring up any emotion, even when I know I should be. *sighs* I've been way to strange. *shakes her head* Something's not right. That much, I know.
Eternal_Hell3073 · Sun Apr 10, 2005 @ 03:46am · 1 Comments |
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As it turns out, I didn't have to go to work today. My mother had to close the store down today 'cause they're doin' construction across the street and they've got then entire road blocked off. I honestly don't know wether to be happy or sad 'bout that. *shrugs* I don't really think it matters right now though. My mother's at Tammy's 'babysitting' Grey - I know, weird name for a ten-month old baby. Tammy's probably talking my mothers ear off too. Heh. That's one reason I never go over there. I'd perfer to hangout with my friends - both from gaia and around here.
Eternal_Hell3073 · Fri Mar 18, 2005 @ 05:39pm · 1 Comments |
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*sighs* Working late is really starting to get to me. Yesterday, I had to help my mother out at her store with filing for the tax return and then I had to help the coffee customers while mother helped the people who came in for herbal information/references. I never realized how many people come in for coffee more than once a day. Coffee addict maybe? Heh. I tend to get a coffee whenever I can, but no more than one a day. And it's rare that I get one everyday. I did, however, create a new smoothie blend for mother. She needed something to give her energy, but she didn't want to eat a protien bar. Understandable. So, I got to work makin' a new smoothie for people who need energy quickly but don't want to 'eat' anything. I tasted pretty good. It wasn't powdery like many protien and energy shakes are. Heh.
I'm off work today, so I get to rest and chat, ect. I've gotta go in tomorrow though. I need the money and gettin' paid $25.00 per day isn't a bad start. Of course, your mother owning the store might help a little too..I think... Anyhow, PM me if ya need anything. heart Love ya! heart
Eternal_Hell3073 · Thu Mar 17, 2005 @ 10:00pm · 0 Comments |
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Sorry it's been so long since I've been online. I've been pretty busy. I had Exams last week and I was up late studyin' for them most of the time I was away. Anyhow, I'm on spring break this week and next. Yay! *does a little happy dance* I'll finally be able to get online more often and chat with people. Check out a few of the stories I've written: http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=6608476&highlight= Gonna go look around the site at what's new. See ya! heart heart
Eternal_Hell3073 · Tue Mar 15, 2005 @ 10:52pm · 0 Comments |
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