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I've decided to start a new AIM and new Gaian account. If I love you, I'll tell you the names.


Too many people think I've made my life up. I'm sick of it, so I'm starting over and I'm not telling *anyone* my life.

lol Buh bye and stuff.

Andi feels guilty now.




Good.

The quest is off. Andi thinks I lied about my life.


Some friend.


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>_> I got lazy and didn't want to think of a title.

I don't know if I ever mentioned it to any of you, but there was this guy at my other school named Cody. He literally worshiped me. He looks like Gerard from MCR. He made this religion called Annist. :b He was like....awesome. Everyday at break he would tell me that he loved me, but I never loved him back. I was always involved with someone. But it just hit me today.

I love Cody.

I had this dream.

I was in school, my old school, and I was walking toward the stairs. Behind me, I heard someone call my name, so I turned around, and I fell. I fell down the stairs. And though I was asleep, I could feel it in the real world. And I was dying. I was at the bottom of the stairs alone and I was dying. And I heard someone call my name again, and it was Cody. And he held me while I died. He held me because he's Cody, and he cares like that. He dosn't care what anyone thinks about us sitting there at the bottom of the stairs. He just held me. And at that moment, I knew that I loved him.

I had always loved Cody, I just never saw it. And now it's too late. It can't ever be. Never, ever, never. I waited too long and it's through! It's over! And it's ******** depressing!


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It's caused me to take up cutting again. lol So whee! There's my entry for now. If you'll excuse me, I think I'll go hang myself.

Well, it's been a while since I updated. *Alot* happend with my family that I'm not ready to share with the world yet. I'm in too good of a mood. But here's the big news:

I've decided to by Candi Andi an AFK! She's wanted one since as long as either of us can remember. Any donations will help and I'm also doing commissions to raise gold.

Andi better be glad I love her. mad heart

My brother changed religions and he was preaching to me about how God is great and stuff. I know that. I keep telling him this. He won't listen. He just keeps going on and on and on- like that Duracell battery. gonk He makes me feel like my beleifes are stupid and I'm going to hell because of what I beleive. I don't even beleive in hell. neutral What's up with that?

Today was the first time I had to hide from my mother. I was afraid that she would beat me, so I hid. That's very devastating for me. I hid. From my mother. The one person in my life whe's supposed to understand and love me no matter what. My dad's home, so she can't hurt me, but I'm still afraid. She yelled so very loud. She slammed doors. She made my big brother cry- which is pretty hard.


This is getting really bad.

I recently downloaded some new PSP 8 brushes, so I've been going nuts with them. Check it out:















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