It's okay sparkle. I am just kinda mute about it. I haven't even been on Solia often. Nothing really is going to make me happy. I don't even think getting a pookie or sash would make me feel much better then I do now. [Not that I will be getting one anytime soon.] I just feel lost and out of place. I haven't left my room in a day, I feel sick. I am just not happy anymore at all. So I tend to pre-o Pretending to have a life says: ccupy my time in fantasy worlds. I'm in about three role plays to keep my mind occupied. It's better then reality at the moment.
Pretending to have a life says:
I can't constantly go through this as if my whole world is a blackhole. Everything reminds me of her. She was my everything, like I had said before. She practically knew everything about me. All my secrets my problems. What made me happy what made me sad. I lost my best friend, Sparkle. I lost my lover. I lost my companion and I will never get her back by the way it sounded. Pretending to have a life says: And if that isn't enough I already went with heart ache last year. I just don't need this. My heart has finally given up, and it's killing me. Pretending to have a life says:
Literally I am in pain. It's not stopping. And it's something even medication can't heal. I have had about 10 hours of sleep in the past 7 days and it's getting worse. I have not even been able to correctly put thoughts together it's so bad. I just don't feel...happy...anymore.
Stakie Heart · Wed Oct 01, 2008 @ 04:18am · 0 Comments |