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I hafta leave in less than ten minutes for a funeral. My dad's cousin that I don't even know. I'm going there to support my dad, more than any other reason. My monologue's been moved to two weeks from Thursday. God dammit, I just wanted to get it over with this week. But my drama teacher said that she'd rather we did it well than just doing it. I suppose so. But it doesn't stop me from feeling bad. Guilty is a more apt description. I feel guilty about a lot of things. Too many things. For example, I feel bad for not giving a s**t about this funeral. Which is disgusting, I know. I'd rather stay home and watch American Idol. o.o My dad's so afraid of death and family being split apart. I don't know why, since his family sucked growing up. Meh. I really need to do my community service. But I can't find the right thing. I'd rather my mother did it with me, so that I wasn't completely uncomfortable. But it probably won't end up that way. My AP paper is due next month. I haven't even started on it. That's something else that makes me feel guilty. Why is it that I cannot bring myself to solve any of these things that make me feel guilty?

Edit: Apparently there was a guild for ATGG.

O.o