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I solmn understand why i do what i do. When i do i usually try fixing it to make it worse. I black out for hours and find myself in some random place. But this....i cant imagine what i could have done....

I woke up one spring break afternoon on my driveway. I had blacked out again I assumed. I looked at my watch and it had been 4 hours. More than usual. My head was throbbing and my arm ached but what i saw was so shocking it made me forget that all. Looking down at my arm i found what was hurting...I had a cut shallow but sloppy down my arm. I felt where my head hurt and surely enough there was a patch of crisp dry blood in my hair and a sore wound. My other arm had blood on it as well...but...it wasn't mine i could tell because all of my blood was crusted while this was still alittle wet."HOLY s**t!" i shouted as i ran inside to filled the tub with water not caring if it was freezing and washed off. I still dont know what i have done but i fear for the worst......