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I'm Paranoid of my friends now. I'm quite convinced I'm unimportant to a friend of mine.

He says I'm important, but from what he's said I'm important like one of an airplane's engines. Sure I make the plane go but I'm part of a set that doesn't need me.

His responce to this was that I am important. That's all he told me, no reassurence no argument or support or promise or apologies. He just said something that does not contradict what I said. Normally that means he's not denying it.

He hardly ever says anything to me the largest message I ever got from him wasn't even three full lines, he leaves without telling me where he's going and no advanced warning. I ask him so many questions and try hard to gt him to talk and open up, but he just doesn't want to.

He never admits to anything more than liking me as a friend when I make the clear distinction of loving him as a friend, he won't pm me unless it's a reply to a pm I send him.

I have to struggle very hard to get keep a conversation (if it can even be called that) going with him.

When I was struggling with myself and pointed out my journal to him twice for him to understand how I felt, he hadn't read it even once. In fact I'll bet he'll never see this entry.

I certainly don't feel important.