im doing it again.. im pushing away others and imagining things/emotions that arnt there. i cant go to my best freinds house with out thinking something bad about her and i dont want that.... i pretend im something im not around her ... afraid that if i speak my mind with her we wont be the friends we are now... i love my boyfriend dearly but i cant help but think he's gonna want someone closer to his age and home... some times i think im pushing him away just so i dont get hurt when that does happen. i want to tell them these things but im too chicken... and if they read this then they will be hurt that i didnt tell them to their faces. im lost and confused and sacred cuz im confronting my dad ( calling him tommarrow to set a time to talk) i should grow up and act like an adult since ppl keep telling me i am one now but cant i still be my wierd and silly self a nd be considered an adult?
silverwolf1288 · Sat Feb 17, 2007 @ 07:11pm · 1 Comments |