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I find it amusing when people try to judge me based on my actions. Granted I'm no better than others considering the way I think is based on the logical reaction to things which I have witnessed, so to be on another side of the same situation is actually rather amusing.

I've come to a point in my life where I don't want any thing to be left undone or unsaid. My window of opportunity is short considering I have months, maybe a year at most before I enter the working adult world as a card carrying member of modern civilization.

So does that make my experimentation bad? Or does it make me human?

Sexual, chemical, lifestyle wise? None of it seems to affect my work, I still meet my requirements and I always work my hardest and my best, so how could that be pushed against me? No one has been disappointed in me so far, and my performance hasn't been affected.

So I fail to see the problem.

I was reading my AP history textbook doing a little homework before I went to work today and they said something about how progress of social science was a heavy influence in the enlightenment. It kind of made me think, considering a dream I had last night which caused me to recall a few unpleasant memories, that I've been making progress.

I've been moving away from a rather pathetic period of my life where I seamed stuck on unimportant things. Lessons that were learned were indeed important, but the wicked times no longer needed to be dwell upon, and hadn't been for a while.

It's called healing, another human characteristic.

This would usually bother me, I'm not the kind of person to just let something go without a complete and total resolution, but some things just can't be resolve. Some things aren't worth being resolved, and some things aren't meant to be resolved. If that upsets those who know me. I'm sorry, but I can't please everyone, and now I think I need to concentrate on my own happiness. For a while I had forgotten what it was.