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I'm dieing inside and no one gives a damn! I've been here before, a few times and I'm quite aware I'm dieing. I am sick of Mom I hate her. Ya me being emo again and odds are this entry will sit here for weeks before anyone reads this but that's ok I only need myself,screw you all. I'm held captive in my own house, a phone, books, internet ,pencils and paper are my only way out. I'm only granted the opertunity to go to school 5 days a wekk and jump onto the internet at any chance I have. My life is being drained and no one cares. I've dyed my hair to stand out and for people to look at how I don't need your rules to live my life. The only way I could live in 2006 was to see my MBB(if you could still call us that) but now even that has been taken away from me. I'm trapped within a few inches to the outside world but it's still to far for me to reach. I know I have depression but I can't seem to find anyway to get by then to write in a jourbnal online away from wandering eyes. So, if any of you read this and if you'r close to me and you heard I've ran away tell my blood-sucking mother this : I've asked for my freedom but she toke everything from me until I had to save myself. Long story short tell her I'm not her friend and it's her fault. I find myself withdrawing even to my friends....you all have put up with my depression long enough and it's about time I've let it go. ~ heart PS I have a saying : If you hide your fear and pain we can have a better time. Well, I've played lifes game to long and I quit. I'm done you close to me...it's soon to the time where you won't talk to me, we'll fall apart and some of you will forget me. It was a nice run.

Posted by: xXxToxinxXx Mon Jan 22, 2007 @ 12:59am

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Commented on: Mon Jan 22, 2007 @ 05:42am


	Believe it or not, Lexi, I've sat here and heard every one of your damn journal entries. You piss and complain and don't make any sence in them so I never really gave a crap. You're always pulling emo acts on here and complaining about your mother, whom you never really say why you hate her, you just do. And all this crap about being cooped up in your house, it's not like you've got a padlock on your door. You think your life sucks so bad but you don't even know what you're really saying. There are far worse things in life than reaching puberty and blaming your mother for it. And an online journal is the completely wrong place to post things if you want them "away from wandering eyes." The internet has been open to the public for quite some time now. Sometimes life sucks... Well, most of the time life sucks, but you just have to get through it like everyone else. You can't always run away when there's a time in your life things aren't going your way. That's a part of growing up, and you're just going to have to accept that.

Commented on: Mon Jan 22, 2007 @ 07:41pm


	-le sigh- You’re being just as immature as she is Doctor. And now my turn. I haven’t seen you ONCE ASK what her mother has done to her. And if you’re going to go piss and moan about Lexi’s life, which you have no clue what goes in her life, be quiet. You are some friend to say something like that! You know? And if you were a guy I’d tell you something different. Like, you have some balls to say that. You haven’t a clue what goes on in her life, and if you don’t want to take the time too listen and ask then just be quiet, okay? At least I have been there for Lexi in hard times. And you? Never. I actually take the time to get involve in her life. To listen to her. At least I’m a friend too her. And if you don’t like Lexi’s journal, don’t read it. It’s that simple, savvy? Maybe that’s why what she says makes sense. Because I know what her life is like.

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Commented on: Sat Jan 27, 2007 @ 02:25am


	reads comments .....-no comment here I'm to shocked-

Commented on: Tue Jan 30, 2007 @ 02:04am


	burst out laughing I'm sorry Lex, it's not your entry I'm laughing at it's these comments. rolls eyes Man, I hate people...

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Commented on: Thu Feb 15, 2007 @ 09:04pm


	I don't know which side to go on, Captain's or Doctor's?

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