well, my so-called "friend" Jessie (who's in my homeroom) told me that my ex wanted his necklace back. Unfortunaltely, she didnt realize that would upset me. Then she made it worse by asking If I needed a tissue. I wasnt crying and had no plans on it so why the ******** would I need a tissue? I defianately told her not to tell me if he wants to send me any little messages. I dont see why the ******** HE thinks he's getting his ******** necklace back after he cheated on me. It was made out of cheap metal and I broke it in half. At least I think thats the necklace he wants back. Theres no ******** way he's getting the necklace he got me for my 16th birthday though. I threw most of the stuff that he gave me into a little box and put it under my bed. I wont go through it at all.... it hurst too much to think about him still but I still cant forget him.... not yet. I keep thinking back to all these little times we shared. This really sucks today. I keep thinking I'm seeing him everywhere. I'm glad I'm not because I'm scared of him. I'm afraid that he might try to hurt me. I've been afraid of him for a long time now but I never wanted to admit it to myself. I don't know why I was with him all those times alone when i was scared to death. I always felt so jumpy. I kept having visions today, of him coming to my house and trying to hurt me. I've just beek kinda on edge lately I guess. I'm so tiredfrom having some friends over last weekend.... I guess I just need a good night sleep to get me back. that wont be happening soon though. My brother is going to have some friends over on friday. They like to stay up late and play dungeons and dragons and they get loud sometimes so then it wakes me up. well, I guess i've had enough of this for tonight... goodnight all
gakihime · Thu Jan 11, 2007 @ 01:45am · 0 Comments |