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Well it is bright and early here on Thursday hehe, I did get plenty of sleep, the boys fell asleep right after i read them a story, so I layed my head on my pillow and fell asleep quite quickly.
I dreamt of a long time ago, when I was under the influence, I re-lived my last days and my first few days in rehab, the shame, the guilt I felt for puttin my family through such a horrid ordeal. Noone knew I was using, and those who did were using with me, but the ones who knew something was wrong but werent quite sure what, well I owe them an apology, I am sincerely from the bottom of my heart sorry for all the pain and sufferin I put them through, and yes they know who they are. I wasnt the same back then, and still fight to be myself today, I am sometimes distant and quiet, only because I fear rejection, but I think of them always and love them unconditionally. Here is some stuff I went lookin for this mornin after my dreams.....
a poem I wrote while I was in rehab, its a short one but a true one
~Angel's are among us in many shapes and sizes,
We look around but never see God's Angels hes placed beside us;
Our Children!~
I wrote that about of course my 3 angels, but I know Mothers everywhere will agree. I will post a poem I found quite helpful during my recovery in a few more days... Each day Ill try to be more open through these journal entries, in hopes u all can get to know me a lil more.
Craze, thanks for the comments, and ill just reply here or pm ya if its easier on u... smile Im still new to the gaia world, but so far am enjoyin it alot...
Snow.... thankies for the encouragement, u r truly a wonderful woman, I am proud of u in more ways than u know my dear.... I loves u bothies alot... well till my next entry, stay safe, and remember Im here for u!! Loves ya all smile