So, pretty much I feel like s**t.
I have to read a 500 page book in about one day. I can probobly do it if I really try, but like, I have such a short attention span it probobly won't be possible. We get reoport cards soon, and I know I have C's, D's, and the ocational B, and that sucks because I go to a "magnent" middle school, for smarter kids, but lately my grades have been dropping, and I am going to be on probation, I'm pretty sure, so like, if I don't bring my grades up by the next report card, I'll be kiked out of the school I go to. I sort of don't mind though, because I almost want to go to new school, just so I can have no friends.
I hate all of my friends, except Madeline. All of my other friends are mainly "school friends" and I don't even like them much, and I don't think they really like me much either.
I feel like no one likes me. I mean, sure, Madeline does, even though we arent BEST friends, she still treats me with respect. I feel insecure sometimes because I have never kissed anyone or dated anyone. I feel like no one wants to go out with me and people think I am ugly, so that leads me to beleive I am ugly. My only REAL friends are my online friends, as sad as that is. I had a best friend, but we have split up, so now I'm allways lonely.
I constantly take pictures of myself. I am not going to say I love it, because love is a strong word, and I don't love anything.
I talk to my stuffed animals, and pretend that they talk to me back, because they are my friends. I love my stuffed animals, and they love me back. I can never get rid of them because I love them so much, even the ugly ones I can't part with, because LOOKS DON'T MATTER (for everything other than me) and personality does, and my stuffed animals are all nice to me and are allways there for me, and they would never do anything to hurt me.
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I have given up with school, really. The people, the teachers, the grades, everthing I have given up with. I don't know why. In elementary (sp) school I allways got all A's and maybe one or two B's. But, when I got into sixth grade, I started slacking off, and its getting bad, because I am smart, but: I have no common sence, I never turn in my home work, and even if I study for a test, I allways fail it. I wish I were home schooled. I would seriously like that better than having to go through school each and every day. People call me goth, and I hate it. I clearly am not.
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i've been slacking off in school, too.
though there is a chance i might get homeschooled
alot better than public school
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