Year 0016: Over sixteen years old and at my Junior Year at college yeah I skipped a couple of grades! With Talli and Sakuyo. Samaku skipped a couple of grades but she's Freshman. I don't know why I like these people but I do. I don't understand why Sakuyo like me he's never said he loves me but I think he might tell me tonight. He told me to leave tonight to him so we could do something special and he was going to tell me something. I don't know what he wants with me he pays for me and only kisses me. We don't have sex so that wouldn't be a reason. I don't even know if he wants to have sex but whatever pleases him. WAIT! Did I just say "Whatever pleases him"? I think I might be sick. I'm not supposed to love. I promised myself that I would trust anyone anymore. To love him is trusting him to eather take care of my heart or reck it. he says he doesn't like the shirt I'm wearing. It says "Nothing in life is good not even love." What ever it doesn't matter. I like it so what. "Hey b***h!" -Cheerleader "She's talking to you, you b***h!" -Other Cheerleader. "Like I care" -Me "Look just drop Sakuyo he doesn't like you I mean a hottie like that like you? HA! What a laugh! So drop him 'cause the head cheerleader wants to go out with him but your in the way and will make your life a living hell if you don't" -Other Cheerleader. "She's not gonna leave me we've been going out since we were nine and she'll kick your asses any day of the week! I won't let her leave me anyways so go ******** yourself!" -Sakuyo. Then he pulled me away. "Stop doing that. I don't care what they say" -Me. Then he kissed me. French kissed me. He's never done that since the first kiss we had somethings gotta be up. Night: I'm just gonna break up with him. I don't like him trying to stick up for me. I don't like feeling this emotion. *Starts crying* I don't want to trust anyone! *Someone hugs me from behind* I can tell it's Sakuyo. *Turns around and hugs him back*. "Baby, please don't be sad. I-I love you. I don't want to see you cry. I don't want you to ever be hurt again. I don't want to put you through anything that will make you feel bad. I love you, ONLY you I will never love anyone else if you leave me I'll try to get you back. No matter what you say or do, or what anyone else says or does I'll love you and I'll never give up on you" -Sakuyo. We had sex. Lost of times and losts of different ways. It was like a farewell. Ugh. I thought I was gonna puke a little while ago and I did so I took some medicine and I'm gonna go to the doc later. I've never gotten sick before. Why the hell am I sick? :End.
Etnad Consaime Traiche · Tue Feb 08, 2005 @ 04:00am · 0 Comments |