Me and Perry are Muy Emo.
Weeks and Weeks.
Ok so this week and last week and basically every week since Halloween has been nothing short of hell or just plain odd. So lets start of with good ol' halloween.
I basically mooned someone on accident during this little hang out with me, my friend and her boyfriend + some of his friends whom which I've never met.
It was on accident since he took my friends camera and was trying to look at it. I was being nice and was trying calmly to get it back but he pushed me down *This was all happening on a couch* and my pirate skirt wasn't exactly the best thing to be wearing at that moment right then and there. Well Josh *The kid who had the camera* Saw my a** and every time I see him he likes to mention. It's not so much that it embarrassed me it's just that he KEEPS bringing it up like I wanna hear it. Oh, and I think he has a mega crush or what ever you'd like to call it on me! I don't seem him as anymore then a friend and he always wants me to hang with him,chat with him or whatever! Oh and on friday of last week him and some friends had a nice 5 to 10 min conversation of my a** and how "sexy" it was. I mean it's not that i mind I just hate my a** to begin with *Long story* and I always hear about it, and random people like to grab or slap it. I don't know if whoever is reading this has ever been slapped on the a** by random people but its annoying and so beyond rude..I dunno..hes just bugging me *Josh I mean* He is all over me like we're going out and The Saturday the Nintendo Wii came out he was all over me like he was waiting for something to happen since I was the only other girl besides my friend Deanna who is not single. At first I though it was because I was the only girl, but the people who came with us said that they though we were going to make out since he was always laying on me and such. I mean this kid even wanted me to kiss him the other day. At first I though he was haha joking but no, his friend said he was serious and I trust his friend only because its my Best friends Boyfriend and I've known him long enough to know he doesn't joke about s**t like that.
Enough about an annoying boy on to home issues.
Lately my mom has been complaining about not having enough money! I know it's true but she brings it up every time I'd like to do something as if she trying to put me though guilt of not having enough money like it's my fault. She also LOVES saying it when I need new clothes like underwear or bras, she brings up the fact we don't have money. I mean what the hell....she can go out and buy Alcohol or cigarettes when ever she wants but she can't get me a simple few pairs of underwear or bras? What the ******** is up with that...for the last few years I've basically had to buy any necessities I've been in need of. If I need shampoo, I have to buy it..If I need a new towel for swimming class I have to buy it....Then she had the nerve to get pissed when I didn't buy her something the other day. Well excuse me mom! Why do I want to get you something when you complain you never have the money when I really need something..ughhh and then she had a ******** attitude with me the whole night...
This might not make you as mad as I do, but just imagine that every time you get money you have to use it on stuff you really need like shampoo or shaving cream, or whatever. I had to wait 2 weeks for my check and end th end had to spend it on what I needed....she wouldn't even pitch in to at least help pay for some new bras or underwear..Uhh I dunno..she has been doing this for years It surprises me I still get extremely angry at it.
School:
Uhh I don't even wanna talk about school....but I guess I need to vent and say what's on my mind before I get my self sick.
Ok, well last week I was called down to the office...I was like "Ok its this survey thing that I signed up for a few weeks ago" Well I was like why the hell do I need to go to the office......well anyways I made my way down their only to sit in the Vice principles office for a good 20 mins...worrying about what the ******** is going on here...and eventually she comes in...and with her same monotone voice she asked me if I knew why I was here..and obviously I have no ******** clue why I'm here..so I answered politley "No, sorry I don't" Since I'm in noo mood to ******** with the V.P XD Well anyways she flashes me a piece of lined notebook paper that had my writing on it..which then I suddenly remember about a note I lost that apparently one of my teachers found that just so happen to be the one my note was talking about. All it basically said and I'm not kidding, was that she was on Acid. I didn't mean that she was actually on acid it was just that she acts like it always fighting with her self etc. I dunno well they asked me if she actually was and I said no, that I was just saying that was because she was extremely weird *Oh and by this time, the Schools social worker walked in and took a seat next to me, which got me extremely nervous* Well like 10 mins went on about the note. And eventually they asked me about my grades..and I seriously didn't remember what the hell they were so I had to bullshit it and try and remember...but all of a sudden they both jumped on my a** as if I did something wrong. The social worker was all like "Are you struggling on Chemistry?" Well no ******** s**t lady I have a ******** E in that class I wonder if I'm struggling! I mean seriously what the hell is up with that question? Well anyways she looked at me with this odd gaze and started up in her semi calm voice "Well you look like a smart girl, cause I don't think I could ever be in chemistry" I wanted to hell in her ******** face and tell her has see ever heard the saying "never read a book by it's cover" I dunno but I was getting frustrated then they tired telling me their school horror stories about classes they failed and thats when I wanted to seriously die...Oh and they also told me the Teacher who I said was on acid was hurt by what I said and they didn't want to give me a detention or a suspension for saying it so they suggested more like FORCED me to write her a note which in the end I didn't cause this teacher is a ******** whore and deserves what she gets from what I said. Well I told him that fine I would * I didn't* and I was on my way.
Oh, and when I tired being nice to that teacher she in the end ignored me every which way. If I needed help, she would ignore me, If I had a question she ******** ignored me..so I was like you know what i tired to be nice and say a semi heartfelt story but in the end you ******** ignore me? Well you know what ******** you.
But yea whatever I'm trying my best to pass that class even with out the help of my ******** middle schooler teacher. *She acts like a middle schooler since she didn't even confront me when she found the note* Uhh I dunno..she just needs to get this middle school attitude out of her a**.
Friends:
Ok I know by now your all like "WTF MEL!"
Well anyways Me and my friend Deanna have been friends for a long time now and we ALWAY tell each other everything and anything we can. But lately sees been how shall I say this? Out of it. We never hang out and never do anything when I do go over her house. But this only started happening when she started going out with this one kid that she barely knew for 3 months. Well at first I was like ok, maybe she having relationship problems and she just doesn't feel like talking to me about it yet..so I gave her, her space and left her alone..no it just got worse and I even asked her about it and she just shrugged it off as if it was nothing...and its definitely something. But yea...I dunno..and when we do hang out besides doing something she always invites her boyfriend over who I don't have a problem with its just..she does it with out asking...I mean we're hanging out no her, me and her boyfriend..and when we do hang out she always makes out with him the whole time and I end up being this third wheel s**t...and I don't like it and I've obviously told her numerous times! But whatever...she needs to get over this s**t and tell me what's going on so I can help her so our friendship doesn't end....I mean shes kewl! She's my ******** best friend! We are like...But yea whatever....
more friends:
Ok, well I know..your eyes are tired but keep reading kay?
Well recent me and an old friend have been in a terrible fight. It all started when I decided to tell her to pick something of hers ups. All I said in a nice tone was "Please pick your s**t up" yea s**t isn't exactally the nicest thing to say but she knows me I have have a terrible mouth. Well she turned around and told me that she was picking it up and that I needed to shut my ******** mouth up. I called her a beached whale and also told her she should never tell me to shut the ******** up! Well now shes in this little world where she things shes the hot s**t and that everyone else is jealous of her, which she even said her self in a conversation between her and my friend when my friend was trying to solve this issues between me and her. She hasn't said s**t to me about this problem only the ocassionaly bad look or attitude towards me which I just ignore since If I did the same thing back I would be just as bad as her! and I seriously don't want that. I mean I've talked to her and asked her whats up her a** and why she hates me so much but she doesn't have the ******** guts to talk to me. I means she can freely chat with someone else about it but she can't talk to me? I mean she even told my friend who was defending me the whole time that I should "watch what I say" because "I'll eventually push her over the edge" I mean what am I gonna do? Breath wrong and push her over the edge? Highly doubt..not likes shes gonna do anything to me..she knows what I'm capable of. But what ever..shes stuck in the middle schooler times with my teacher who is on Acid..I don't really give a ******** got issues to deal with and shes just one of those little pebbles on the road of life that try and threaten you.
Though I do give kudos to Corey for standing up to me, and even though I know she won't read this I thank you soooo much babe, I appreciate what your doing and just so you know, if she ******** with you just tell me I'll show her to NEVER and I mean NEVER ******** with my friends because I'll kick your ******** a**.
And I know for anyone who may read this, that my grammar and whatever else isn't exactly the best..I'm sorry XD I was typing fast and had no time to correct or even want to read over what I just wrote. Somethings are rambled up but I don't really care.
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