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Yeech...I give up, Ill just post a new entry when I find time to do so. Which...now that I think about it, I might have that time now...well for about a month or so anyways...I don't know...maybe not...just going to have to see.

Yea, I came to the end of that long road. What was this long road? My leadership run, that's what. I gave Sub a heads up about a week ago. I wouldn't have done it if I could find myself a way out of it.

It was hard to say the least bringing myself to this decision, but a lot of factors contributed to push me in one way. As of this past September, I got a job. A lot of members dont know, just primarily Tier 1. Though I suspect that they got some hint of it given my activity in Snagem took a shot in the arm. I didnt get on until around later than what I usually have, and that was IF I was able to get home and find the computer being free. Higher Power as of late became a severe opportunist, being on the computer while Im away, thus preventing me from getting online. Now there WAS a silver lining to this cloud. Higher Power intended on getting Wi-Fi so she can give her laptop more attention thus me able to come on a little more without Higher Power being THAT much of a problem...

But then comes the second part of the problem that basically made me settle on my decision. College. The whole reason I got a job was not only to say I have one and get money for personal reasons, most of the funding I get from this job will contribute to getting myself back into College classes. Im not sure if I mentioned this in one of my past journal entries, but I was cut off from financial aid because my GPA fell below a 3.0 and to make matters worse, I wont get it back given on how far into my classes I already am. I planned on getting back into College this coming semester, assuming Im not too late in registering and advising. If I am, then I suppose Ill just have to wait until this coming Summer Semester if not next Fall Semester. Either way though, once I do get back into my classes, I will surely not have the time to lead like I should.

But now the question...if I had the job since September and I mentioned that Id be stopping leading the team long before now, why was I still leading until now? Well, thank the Tier 1 for that one and also my work schedule. You see, my job has irregular hours. I go in at a certain time, and leave...whenever. I could be off as early as 7pm in the evening, but on the flip side of the coin, as late as 11pm (which thank God that hasnt happened yet). When I got the job, Tier 1 was devistated to hear that because first thing on their mind was that warning I gave months before hand. However, I told them that there was that ray of hope and I told them about my work schedule, however with that being the case, I told them it was THEIR decision to either take me off or allow me to stay on. They all agreed that I could stay on, however I stated to them that if things get hectic or is about to, that I would drop the spot and I specifically told Sub to be ready when that time came. Obviously that happened.

So yea, I went off the spot...gave myself a demotion to Admin so I could help out in any way that I can when I can (though RP story wise, I havent said anything pertaining to that). Hopefully though I wont be nearly as inactive as people like RC or Arbok because of their RL reasons. Though I have to say its a very weird feeling...its one of those "WTFH have I done?" sort of things. Because I tell you, I had a lot of personal goals and I only accomplished like...........two of them. <_<" Those two were to outlast S22 in leadership time. S22 only lasted a year and a month, where I in turn lasted more than a year and a half. One of my personal goals was to last two years leading, would of done so this coming April...but...yea. Another goal was to just keep Snagem active as long as I was leading it...which apparently mission accomplished.

I had a list of goals though was left untouched because it was beyond my control. For instance, having a HQ thread to make it to 250,000 posts under my lead. <_< >_>" But a lot of stuff prevented that. The forsaken ban on NSider was one of those contributors. Then of course as I mentioned the 2 year leading thing. The list just goes on and on.

You know though, I find something rather funny though. Within this last week, it was like...people were WAITING on me to leave just so stuff can happen. Because lets see...old, inactive members started coming back all of a sudden...new ones start popping up out of nowhere and is ACUTALLY showing up in the guild, as in POSTING in our HQ THREAD and RPING like the rest of us...and...and this is the part I wish wouldnt have happened...old nemesis starting to be a pain again. Yea...Kingboo1/TrackerTV/crackhead/the stalker/however you want to know him by has decided to come out of whatever rock he was under and started trying to get himself back in. Sending E-mails to Sub about him wanting in, trying to bargain with S22 to get him back in, etc. It makes a guy kind of wonder... <_<"

Well, I guess Ill end it here. Got to get in bed in less than 20 minutes from now because of the job. I got a long day tomarrow... >.<" Anyways, Ill just post whenever I can. Until then...