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How can it be that one person can make you feel so unbeilivably happy....but at the same time make you want to cry all the time?
It doesn't seem logical to me that one person can have such control over your emotions, and no matter what you do you try to take control again...but you just can't. When something goes wrong, and they hurt you(weather they mean to or not) you keep thinking, "I'm going to tell them off! tell them exactly what i feel..." But then when time comes to do it, you see thier face or hear thier voice, you feel feble and un-able to do it. Part of you thinks 'No big deal, its not like it was intentional' while another part of you screams within in you 'Stop lying to yourself!' And in the end, which do you lisen to? the voice thats saying 'forget about it'...which in the end leads you right back to that very same disition again, and leaves you feeling completely empty; And the cycle begins once again...