Am I useless? It seem so. My life hasn't gotten any better. Everyday I do the same thing; get up, go to school, do nothing productive, then sleep. At night, when I try to sleep, I think about what I have done during the day; which is nothing really. I keep thinking; school is there to help you learn and maybe even get you some friends. I don't really learn anything because of my day dreaming habit. At lunch I eat with friends. And if I'm lucky enough, I get into conversations. But that doesn't always happen. Sometimes I try to say something but the words just don't come out. Then there's classes. As I said, I day dream. I hate it when the teachers ask you a question on what they just said, and you have nothing to say. It pisses me off because they think that their lecture is not boring. Ignorant. Or is it just me? I think so. Mornings aren't all too great also. I wake up two hours before I have to leave for school. And in thoes two hours I always think;'Will anybody miss me if I never came out of bed? Does anybody care enough about me to even miss me?' Questions about that haunt me everyday after I wake up. I also think about some people at school. It seems that they have a happy-go-lucky attitude about a lot of things in life. I know why. Because they're not like me. There is too much about me that I don't even know why I have that trait. I also think that God made me this way for a reason. What is that reason? I ask that question but the more I ask it the more I want an answer. I should stop asking it. I think too much... 'What is my purpose in life?' I still try to find that out. I don't even know my best quality from my worst. I don't know a lot of things. I have a lot to learn. About life. About others. And about ME. I'll do just that.
Tomorrow...
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