My Year | In Review year that everything changes and nothing is the same
[January]
realization i only have two years left of high school. trying to pay off choir same thing every monotonous day getting low grades in history
[February]
love day single having to decide what i should do saying ill go on a diet but never doing it cause im lazy
[March]
met aaron for the first time online talking almost every day about nothing with him ten hour conversations on aim phone calls every night thinking about life
[April]
first time aaron came over to my house spent the whole weekend with me never left my room actually declaring that we are together my mom making him arrange my furniture
[May]
musicals dying at nine at night countless nights doing nothing
[June]
over time realizing this is my last time seeing my senior friends for a while only to realize they are an hour drive away. last day of school birthdays full of porn and laughter slowly running down with aaron but whatever
[July]
thinking i should get a job and do something with my life wondering what ill do in the future seeing a friend every single week thinking i should exercise over the summer only failing to do so
[August]
school soon last time i see aaron for a few months thinking we are still together
[september]
not hearing from him thinking to myself that its over it is nothing to do with my life really junior year
[October]
going out more and more homecoming making new friends trying to forget
[November]
talked to aaron again on a friend to friend basis thinking i dont want to go to college right after senior year wondering if im really cut out for outside world realizing the thought of that i can make it become nothing emotastic moods become easy to see more thinking about how i could die right before i go to bed realizing how im a different person when im with people emo life at home finding out the plain white t's are like the band that summarize my life in many aspects in their songs
[December]
month of celebrating family time the thought of family time kinda sucks when my mom doesnt have a job, dead beat dad who i dont talk to in california, me getting a job last month just to pay for a trip im falling behind of, and realizing once im done with high school i just want to go somewhere. finding that the song breakdown by plain white t's summarizes my previous though. thinking if ill ever find someone. realizing i might not and im ok with that but still hope to find someone. life being not the same cause its all different finding out what people think of you two faced liars seeing the world how it really is just one step at a time thinking its better for me to be alone
chesterlepanda · Sat Oct 14, 2006 @ 09:10pm · 0 Comments |