Well for the past while i dont know really me and Jordan stopped talking...i was hanging out with friends alot and ive moved on. Its been a good thing and in a sense i feel alot more better about myself and things. I'm still pretty like...hurt i guess....but i guess thats something that takes time to heal....me and jordan chatted on gaia for a bit but who knows if ne thing beyond shall go farther. I dont know if he feels the same and prob not but there will always be that little part of me thats gunna always care for him. Even though i might of broken it off as friend and such...its hard to say that i can come to myself and say "I HATE HIM" Because i dont. I dont hate anyone....well......in this case i dont. I cant bring myself to think all these bad thing about him hoping its going to make me hate him because all the good things come out from them and i cant bring myself to hating him. I dont want to anyways.
It's hard to say where things will pick up.....if they will anyways. I hope so and maybe he will be different then he was before if we become friends. Only time will tell and only he can show me.
Shuichiro · Thu Dec 30, 2004 @ 10:07pm · 0 Comments |