Sorry I haven't been posting in my Journal, even though I don't know who I am apologizing to my Journal or the people of Gaia but the people Gaia probably really don't care sweatdrop
Well anyway the reason I haven't been on is because my computer monitor broke so we had to get another one.
I think I found a signature that is a keeper so if your reading this go check it out unless I change it but I think it will last a while now.
Well I suppose I could tell you another one of my dreams I had. If any of you have seen my profile you probably guess that im a Inuyasha fan. Well anyway I had this dream that me and my girlfriend were walking down a street and then out of nowhere this man comes behind us on a motorcycle and then for no reason he started to insult us and he said something that insulted her cousin that was lost at sea, so she started sobbing then he drove off laughing. Then for some reason I just lost it I didn't have any sense of being a human, all I wanted was to kill him for hurting her. My fingernails got longer like claws, my eyes turned red and I just charged forward to the stop sign where he had stopped and I slashed him with my claws. Then my girlfriend saw what happened that she walked toward me with a horrified expression on her face then she said "what... what happened to you." She then stood there. Then for a brief second I came to my senses and I told her to stay away because I knew I wasn't stable and that anyone that came near me I would attack them. But then she ran over to me and put her arms around me. I lost my feelings as a human again and at that point I didn't know who she was and in my form I really didn't care I just wanted to attack her, so I took my claws and dug them into her back. She gasped with pain but as she was losing her strength she reached up and kissed me. Then I stood there, my claws and my eyes returned to normal, I was human again. When I realized what she was doing I went with it and closed my eyes and kissed her. When I opened my eyes I instantely realized what I had done, I was shocked. I took her to her house but no one was home so I did the first thing that came to mind... I grabbed her moms key put her in the back of the car and started up the car to take her to the Hospital.
I woke up sweating almost scared. I thought about it for the next hour knowing I could never do that but it seemed that in the back of my mind I wish I could just to have something to say, to get closer to her and to get a better relationship with her. But I know if it really happened to me in real life she would dump me and never want her to see me again but I suppose that my mind is like HollyWood and thinks that when something happen, it can be different than what actually happens. I hope she doesn't read this and think that thats what I want to happen to her, I would rather not go through that having her go through pain so I'll probably avoid showing her this entry if she does come over.
Wel I suppose thats it Ill probably have more tommorrow but for now ill stop.
Kazakazi · Wed Aug 16, 2006 @ 05:04am · 0 Comments |