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There was a bit of drama last night because of a rant I posted in my LJ. sweatdrop Some of my friends are worried about me and Jason, and they want me to let him go again.

Okay I'm going to be blunt and frank and maybe it'll sound mean but I hope not, I just really love you and really care about you and I want you to understand. That you are being so stupid about this whole thing. You're not being selfish, that's not it.
Just....No matter how much you love him, you need to drop him! If he acts like he doesn't care much about you and more about this Kathy girl, then you're doing worse to yourself by not changing things. You're agonizing over this whole thing. Over a boy you thought matured, but obviously didn't. Your love is not infatuation. First loves are always like this, you refuse to see their faults and when they do have faults, you try to excuse them from it. I understand the feeling, truly. And Geoff says that he's going to castrate him with a rusty spoon if he doesn't treat you right, but that's beside the point. But seriously Dani...Love does not solve all the world's problems and fix everyone's problems. I wish it did, but just because you love him doesn't mean that you should still be with him.

Do you really think things are going to turn out okay with a boy who doesn't care about you?
What are you trying to accomplish by still being with him?
I know....But what do you get from this whole thing? People cling to each other to help one another. You don't even get reassurance that he's being faithful. I don't mean physically faithful, Dani.

Why would he talk about this other girl so much like that?
Why would he pain himself to avoid you so much?

Sigh....Dani, I really do love you a lot. I don't want you to hurt like you are. Brittany did the same thing before, with her moron boy. But he got laid so he stuck around razz

But, I gotta go sweetie. I am sorry if I confused you. But please think about it. Goodnight, girlie.

Everything she says is true.

Except for the 'he isn't paying attention to you like you want him to, so you should leave him'. What do I gain from leaving him? I won't be happier and he'll just start talking to me LESS. Even if I love him I should leave him, because he isn't talking to me? ...What?

I don't know what I gain from not doing anything, but I do know that I don't want to lose him again. lol That's the only thing I'm sure of right now. So that's out of the question.

I really don't know what I want. Just to be happy, I guess? Isn't that what everyone wants?