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Title: Author: Edward J. Marks Song: Laava – Wherever You Are (forgot who it was by) Fandom: Paradise Heaven Pairing: Edward x Shun Summary: Edward reminisces about the past between Shun and himself. From the day they first kissed at the Sakura Festival when they were in high school, to Paradise Heaven before the war. Remembering the pain of Shun leaving with Shani and the sight if Shun with his new family. Feeling lost and alone, his angel comes to him to show him what they both missed a long time ago, mutual love for each other. Disclaimer: I do not own the song or the idea of Paradise Heaven (that belongs to Raya). Notes: // lyric //
Edward sat alone in his apartment at Downtown. His eyes were filled with tears as he held a festival-wishing card that you put on bamboo so it could come true. His shaking hands clutched to the paper as he silently cried to himself. All he could think about was Shun, his best friend, and his secret lover in his heart. They both were getting ready for the battle ahead of them, the battle of Paradise Heaven and Paradise Hell. The only thing on Edward’s mind was; is Shun going to make it?
The neko closed his eyes and images flashed in his head, days when the two young men were in high school.
~ ~ ~
// When I feel blue, I think of you, cause you're true, Wherever you are. Near or far, you still are my shining star. //
The Sakura petals fell on Shun’s head, making the young boy cuter then he already was. His cheeks were pink from the sake he had been drinking and the delight that he was spending time with his friend, Edward. The neko was sprawled out next to the younger boy with a few pink petals on himself. They were both wearing their festival kimonos. Shun wore his favorite light green kimono while Edward stuck to his blue one with purple butterflies on it.
Edward raised his sake cup up to Shun and shook it a little. “More.” He asked bluntly showing the redness on his cheeks, he was already drunk.
“Save it Ed,” Shun giggled cutely, “You have to take me back to the hotel.”
“Aw but just one more drink…”
The neko pounced on his friend and laughed. He always enjoyed Shun’s company more then anyone else’s in his life. He looked down in those green eyes and smiled softly. His fingers ran through Shun’s tan hair as he laid his head down, nuzzling his face in the crook of his neck. Edward always felt good when he was with the younger boy, like there was something between them. He knew what that was, well for his part; love. He was in love with Shun.
// Sometimes it's mad, things get bad, and I'm sad, Wherever you are, There is light, by my side I feel alright //
Ever since his father raped him, Edward didn’t know if there was such thing as love, simple and romantic love. All he had ever felt was pain, guilt, anger, and loneliness. In his head, he could see his father, laughing at him as he lay on the floor wondering if there was a reason he was even alive. It was until he met Shun in middle school, he wanted to end his life forever.
The young middle schooler just looked at the neko and took his hand
“Hello I’m Shun lets be friends.”
That was all he said as he pulled him off towards the school building.
Since then, they have been friends and the one was never seen without the other. That was how close they were. But it wasn’t long before Edward started to have feelings towards Shun and soon it turned into love. The neko didn’t understand at first, but he started to remember the feeling, the feeling he got whenever he looked at his older sister; it was love.
// Because our love is big, bigger then the two of us. And words can not describe, how I miss you so much. //
Now high school was almost over and the two never separated from their position. Edward laid leisurely on Shun while he stroked his black ears. He never wanted to be parted from the younger boy, as long as he lived. Shun didn’t know this, but he was the only thing that kept him in this world.
“Shouldn’t we get up?” Shun suddenly asked as he wrapped his arms around the older boy, “Its getting late.” He started to get up, but Edward stopped him.
“Please,” He whispered in his neck, “Stay with me a little longer.”
Shun felt his heart pound in his chest as he held onto him tighter.
“Edward your drunk.”
The neko gave out a chuckle and pulled away so he could see his friend’s blushing face. He caressed his hand gently on the younger boy’s cheek and leaned down so their lips were barely touching.
“Is that all you can say?” Edward said softly and kissed him. // I feel love in your arms, and I feel love when I’m with you. I feel love in your eyes, wherever you may be. //
Their lips trembled against each other’s and Shun’s eyes widen, but he slowly gave in and closed his eyes. The kiss was simple, yet full of love and adore for the other. Never in his life, Edward had kissed anyone like this and he hoped that it would last forever.
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Edward traced his finger across his lips as he sighed softly. He could still feel the younger boy’s lips on his even now. He remember the next day Shun told him he kissed him while he was drunk so he didn’t know the kiss was anything important. Even though they both grew you, he never grew out of his feelings for Shun. He even stuck around with him when he went to Paradise Heaven to live. But the thing he brought with him was another boy, Yukito. Shun also didn’t leave empty handed, he met up with an older man named Shani who, from what Edward heard, was king of Paradise Hell and brother to the king of Paradise Heaven.
Deep down he knew Shani was no good.
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// You make me high; I can fly, touch the sky, Wherever you are. I feel free in ecstasy, just you and me. //
“So when are you two getting married?” Shun asked as he lay down on the grass. The two had stopped at Greg’s house for a moment before he returned to their lovers.
“What do you mean Shun?” The neko asked not looking at the younger man. He wished he knew how much it hurt when he kept asking those kinds of questions. You’re the only one I want to marry, he thought bitterly. “I’m too young for marriage.”
The truth was Edward wasn’t planning on marrying Yukito. He did love the little blonde boy, but his heart was with Shun and he was never going to let anyone take his place. The neko knew he was selfish, but that was how he felt.
“You should,” Shun said not looking up at him, “Or Yuki will leave. I mean you have been going out since senior year of high school. You two were most likely to get married at school.” He giggled, but in it was a bit of bitterness and jealousy.
Edward’s ears went down and he sighed softly. “So?” He muttered and looked down at Shun, “Why do you ask anyways?”
“Shani asked me to marry him.”
// You save my day, pave the way, and you stay, Wherever you are. In my heart from the stud we'll never part. //
Edward’s heart seemed to stop as the words slowly spelled out in his mind.
“Shani asked me to marry him.”
“So…you gonna?” The older man said, his eyes blank with no feeling at the question.
“I-I wanted to ask you first. If I should I mean,” Shun sat up and looked at him. He looked like a lost puppy with a smile, “Hes not all bad, and I think he needs someone to help him find the good inside him. I was thinking I could-”
“Do you love him?” Edward interrupted.
The younger man didn’t answer he just stared off at the rolling hills in front of them. It looked as if he didn’t want to say anything, that he didn’t want to admit something, like a dark secret. This puzzled Edward for a moment causing him to stare at Shun for a while until he turned back to him.
“I don’t know, I do…but I-“ He shook his head and sighed, “Nothing. I just wanted your blessings cause you’re my best friend and I care about your understanding about this matter.”
// Because our love is big, bigger then the two of us. And words can not describe, how I miss you so much. //
Edward closed his eyes, trying to hold back the tears. He clenched his fits tight in the grass and his voice shook as he spoke.
“You have my blessings Shun.”
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He couldn’t admit it back then and even now he can’t. Edward sat back in his couch and took out a cigarette from the pocket of his pants. Jades, like his father used. He lit one up and placed it on his dry lips. The neko blew a trail of smoke from his lips as he sighed, this wasn’t right.
He remembered after Shun got married they had their first child, Miya. He remembered standing out in the rain watching the boy he loved so much hold his baby as arms of another man wrap around him. Were not for the rain, you could clearly see he was crying. After that Edward asked Yukito to marry him. When he was standing at the alter Shun waved at him and mouthed,
“I’m so happy for you Edo.”
Edward’s heart broke into a million pieces when he saw he was really happy that he was marrying someone else. If only he could of told him, how different and wonderful their life together would be. Edward wanted to be with Shun, his Shun, his angel, his love. But Shani took him away, or maybe it was his own doing.
// I feel love in your arms (in your arms), and I feel love when I’m with you. I feel love in your eyes, wherever you may be (wherever you may be) (Wherever you are...) //
It wasn’t long until Yukito was taken away from him as well. His mother was informed by Robert, his father, and the old witch took him away to another world. Now Edward was left all alone, let to the torments of his father. Shun’s family came to his add and protected him whenever the man came around, but slowly he was giving up on life. Now all that was allowing him to go on was the sight of Shun’s smiling face when they greeted.
The Jade burned out. It didn’t really take him long to burn out his cigarettes. Edward put the bud in the ashtray and pulled out another one. But when he looked at it he gave out a hiss of utter disgust and threw the pack against the wall of his living room. The neko fell to his knees and covered his face with his hands. How did it come to this? Was it because he was marked by his father? Because he could never tell the person he truly loved that he wanted to be with him for the rest of their lives? Because he just gave up and let him go?
The bamboo wish card fell onto the floor, but flew up again when the wind blew in the room. The neko looked up quickly as his sensitive picked up a soft, yet familiar sound.
“Edward.”
// (I feel love…) //
Edward knew that voice. He could tell who, how old, and what the person looked like from that voice.
“Shun,” He called out standing up looking around, “Is that you?”
The younger man stepped out in front of him and smiled up at him. This was a new smile, something different, like he was the happiest person on all three worlds. He should be with Shani, the cold thought came into Edward’s head, but he shook it off. All there was now was himself and Shun, his love.
“Shouldn’t you be getting ready for the battle?” Edward asked him as he ran his fingers gently through his hair. Its gotten longer, he made a note in his mind.
“Yes, but I wanted to tell you something,” Blush burned on Shun’s cheeks, “Something I’ve been meaning to tell you for a long time.”
“Yeah?” Edward cupped his face, his heart nearly pounding out of his chest, “What is it?”
“Remember when you asked me who I loved? When I told you that Shani wanted to marry me?”
The neko gave a nod and blushed as well.
“…I don’t love him….I-I…I love you Edward J. Marks.” Shun said before he leaned up and kissed the startled neko on the lips.
Edward didn’t brake from the kiss for one second. He held the young boy in his arms tightly as he deepened the kiss, tears falling down from his cheeks. He never felt so happy and loved, never. He could feel their hearts beating at the same pace, beating together as one.
The young boy gave out a whimper and pulled away shyly. He laid his head down on Edward’s chest and closed his eyes just enjoying the moment with him, the person he loved. Edward didn’t give a protest when he pulled away; he just wanted Shun to be with him forever.
“I love you too Shun.” Edward whispered softly as he stroked through Shun’s hair again.
The wish card blew across the room and felt down on the floor showing the wish upon it.
// (Wherever you are…) //
We wish to be together forever Wherever we are -Edward and Shun
End
[Forever Alone In Black] · Wed Jul 05, 2006 @ 11:19pm · 0 Comments |
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