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July 3rd/4th

He showed up at the north muskegon house unexpectedly, me and my brother went to the local redimans to get some snacks on foot, my brother piggy-backed me back home, by the time we got back he had to go, I balled for a while.

When I had to take a shower he would race me to the bathroom with my shirt on my head like a nun's habit, he would always let me win.

when I took baths I would always duck under the water causing a huge mess of water outside the tub, he would never get mad, atleast if he did he never let me know.

When he used to pick me up from daycare sometimes I would dig up change on the playground and give it to him, he would bring me candy sometimes, I remember once he brought me a lolipop of pure sugar shaped like a family of lions.

when my mother and I were at the sams club, I tried to get more time with him durring the week, I guess a portion of five years is too much...

When he lived with us at north muskegon I had just gotten back from the local beach, I took a bath in the large tub where he would usually take a bath, becuase of this he had to use the small tub that he didn't fit in, I remeber looking through the keyhole to see him looking angery, he never told me about it.

In his bed at florida, I colored pictures from a book for him and he would tell me they were all great, I colored really fast that day, but for some reason they were all of really good qualiity. My mother guilited me later for going to see him withought her on the plane.

One day at daycare he ran me in, just before I was about to throw up everywhere, over his shoulder, me drooling uncontroulably all over his suit to the sink where I blew chunks.

He used to dress me on the couch when I had to get up early to go to daycare lol there was a nursery rhyme or somthing like a song or a saying that he would say as he put my socks on, I can't remeber it anymore.

I used to write letters I could recognise on pieces of paper one letter per page and assemble them to form words, he would always point out how close they were to actually forming something.

One halloween he took me out trick-or-treating and when we came back he had gotten somone to put flour footprints all over the household claiming it was casper, which just happend to be my halloween costume that year.

he would take me to north western auto supplies sometimes and let me get gum out of the qaurter operated machines, and put it in little styro-foam cups, I would play with these little ring things that would be placed around some little stunted pole that came out of the floor.

One day at northwester I almost fell of the ladder when trying to get an item for him, after that he wouldn't let me back on the top step withought watching me, though it didn't matter, I was too afraid to go back up there.

whenever he would listen to his seal cd in the living room and kiss by a rose came on, he would lift me up and spin me around the room.

I would always sleep with nothing but one of his really big shirts as pj's, I always liked the one he got from his boat race in the wind dancer.

One day we went to the docks to wait for a boat to come pick us up, it never did, he just said "Maybe next time"

One day we went to one of his friends houses unexpectedly, she wasn't expecting us and as a result she wasn't home, even though her light outside the door was on.

One day he let me try and steer the wind dancer, I almost ran it straight into the side of the pier, one of his shipmates pulled me off and I started to cry.

He dropped me off at one of my pre-school mates houses, I'm not sure if we just stopped by or he left me there for a while to be watched, but I do remember that I had a dream about her and her sister a few weeks later, we visited mars and an evil witch tried to get us, it was my first dream were I could actually control what was going on.

We went into a building, some of the windows had been broken in, we saw a man there. The building has now been refurbished by the state as low income appartments

when he was in the hospital I always wanted to spend the night there with the rest of my reletives, they wouldn't let me.

One winter we had a discussion about lilly bulbs that had been planted in the backyard.

I would never go down into our basement exept when he was down there becuase it was so musty and scared me.

I slipped a little booklet of some drawings my mother forced me to draw into his casket.

I was the socond to pour dirt on the coffin after my mother, I think I was the only one who didn't cry for the funeral.

whenever I was over at abby's house and I had to go home I would hide behind the teeterman's big chair with abby to hide from him.

On july 3rd I got home from megan's birthday party, she got a frisbee and some other s**t, I think I threw a bit of a fit for some reason, when I got home my mother gave the news, I fell onto the carpet sobbing, I think it was beige.

:will add more as I remember it.