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My dear, dear Ashley, I understand that feeling of self doubt. It has plagued me for as long as I can honestly remember.

But Ashley, sweet Ashley, you are good enough to love, to marry, to spend forever with.

I would be the first to take that chance, to do so, if it were not the fact I am already promised to another.

No matter what though, how much time passes, or whatever happens in either of our lives... I swear, you shall always have me in one form or another, even if I can give no more then friendship... you'll always have me.

I know, David...And I'm glad...Because I don't know what I'd do without you in my life...

Sometimes...I wish things were different...That I wasn't so far away...And you and I weren't taken...But I guess life deals us strange hands sometimes...But I want to be there for you no matter what...Even if I am only a friend.

I know I don't really have a way with words, and that you and I aren't really that good of friends, but you're Pinkie's good friend and so I consider you my friend as well.
I think that with everything that we go through in life, every action we make, there will always be a tiny little shadow lining it with doubt and worry.
I, myself, would not consider myself "good enough" for many of the things that I'm lucky enough to have. Love and marriage are not things you need worry about being good enough for, Melonia.
Love is something that springs up on you, or grows on you steadily. Love is a state of nature, a feeling that will embrace you so warmly, you can't really describe it until you've felt it. Love is for everyone. As cliche as it may sound, Love is blind and deaf and mute to all things physical, synthetic, and material.
Love is an emotion that people are lucky enough to experience.
Love has no criteria, and so you can't ever be good enough or bad enough for it.
Every woman deserves love in her life, and you're no exception.

~ I had to separate it into two posts since I wrote something too long... sweatdrop ~

I can assure you, when you do find that one person who will bring to you a fire of such passionate adoration and love, all your doubts and fears will melt away. All your self-conscious thoughts and worries will falter into mere silly comments made before you learned the truth about love.
I confess, Love isn't always rainbows and butterflies and happiness. Love is an experience, and there will be times when you fall, and you'll get hurt.
You just have to remember that when you did fall, it wasn't your fault at all. It just means that the person who made you fall wasn't the one you were meant to be with.
Life is a journy, as is Love. All things happen for a reason, and in the end, all the pains you might feel, have felt, and are feeling will be balanced out by sure joy and ecstacy when you do finally unite with the one you're supposed to be with.
Have a little faith in yourself. You are more than worthy of Love. You yourself are lacking, which is a tragedy. Learn to love yourself and others will love you, too.
Take care, and have a little faith.
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Thank you so much, Angel...This helps more than you know. I hope we can become good friends.

~Ash~

I think that guy has a point

You know things are meant to be slow and take time to understand because if you rush something, you miss the good inbetweens of bonding for love. I wish I could be the better an, so to say I mostly feel I'm never good enough.

You are always and always have been good enough. I wish you can see how beautiful and marvelous you are that it pains my heart to see you worry. You are such an angel, so... beyond words that it could and would make me cry to have you feeling so horrid or sad.
That wasn't easy to say although I open my heart to you and tell you exactly how I always feel I wish you would tell me honestly how you feel and what you'd want.

From all the way over here I try. I wish I could have just atleast a day with you, the day that came and went but I'd like to say happy anniversary sweety.
You don'tknow how proud I am of you being strong. I bet many people envy you for all the right reasons because who wouldn't envy some one as intellegent, beautiful, gorgeous, so good hearted and smart and the best part is the way you are... how lovely your soul is.

One thing I never had to worry about was being faithful because that is something that comes naturally. I avoid it, even now my freinds call me a loser but I don't care because I'm stuck head over feet for you. My first true love and I would understand if you don't feel that way anymore about me. I wouldn't force you into anything as you already know, I wouldn't try to force you to be caged or controlled. I think this beauty deserves anything she wants and I think you deserve to have all the freedoms most men lack to give thier love.

Sorry had to add another post...

Maybe you feel insecure about what I said, but I'm only reassuring you what you already know. I will always love you and be at your side. I only want the bests for you. I fail to be there I guess and for that honey, I'm deeply sorry. I wish you were online now so I can smother you with love I have inside, it would take decades to unveil.

I love you my dearest Ashley, have my heart you are always sweet. Stay kind, you have patience of an angel. Night Ashley

Don't forget I love you no matter what. Always have and always will.
Your my sweet only angel that lifts me up from here and into her heart, the only one who can do that.... Sorry if I scared you at all... with being so loving towards you.

Scare me? You didn't scare me at all, my darling Dimitri. Nothing brings me more happiness than to read your words again...To feel your love again...

For a while it was hard to believe you could actually still love me...But I'm so glad you do. I don't know what I'd do without you, my love. My knight in shining armor...

I love you more than I could ever say...

I wish I would have been there as well...I'm so mad at my sister right now...She was on ALL night...And I had this feeling I should have got on...But my sister decided to be a b***h...I'm sorry, love...

It's okay
We will have our days love
Ofcourse, when I said I loved you always I mean it

I'm so glad, Dimitri. *hugs you tightly*