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Visiting Gaia again and it feels strange. I'm very much an adult now, but the nostalgia of this place... I miss it. Things were fun and I was actually social - bubbly even. Of course, I was only 16 when I joined (time to update my profile again).

I'm not quite the same as I was when I was a regular. I'm 28 now and life is a constant struggle with very little fulfillment or satisfaction. My passions keep me at peace, but are private in nature and I often feel lonely outside of the adult activities.

Should I even be here? My interests, hobbies and overall lifestyle are no longer as whimsical as they once were. I can't remember the last time I binge-watched an anime series or fangirl'd over a feisty anti-hero with wild, oddly colored hair and a smirk that could break hearts. I can't remember the last time I hyper-socialized or RP'd from morning to midnight or even created an OC. I don't draw anymore and completely grew out of most weeaboo things (except for some old jrock music). My views are much more realistic now and they sort of killed the happy-go-lucky part of me.

I feel sort of silly now, like I don't quite belong here anymore. It makes me really sad.