you don't know why you're still
alive.
you don't know who you live for
what you live for.
everything has become a far away thunder rumble
and there's not even any lightning to back you up.
you're always on some level of
not wanting to exist.
there's a never a moment where you're
afraid to die.
you welcome the murderer
the robbery gone wrong.
it's a lot easier than explaining to world
how broken down you are.
you think once you had hope
of recovering.
of "being better."
but that optimism has faded to a dull grey
and it doesn't even comfort you at night anymore.
now you just tell yourself you have to wake up
because your heart is still beating.
you have to wake up because it's
normal.
you wake up to try
everyday
to search for that sparkle
that twinkle
that says everything will be
okay.
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