Okay well

My brain is screaming at me to focus on music and practice! so that I don't screw up my concerto (I've clearly not been practicing enough these last weeks)

but like, I also want to get a job and buy things/save up for uni? And then there's the Toronto trip next week... so yeah if they get back to me next week I'd have to like, postpone working/an interview which might not look great

and like, if i have a job, what if I have to work all day and I'm too busy to practice and then my concerto sounds like s**t? I mean, hopefully that won't happen since I'm mostly part time but? ? ?