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crying I just broke up w/ my boyfriend. we were together for 6 months. i feel so bad. i love him so much but truth be told so did all the grls he knew n it got to me. that and my best friend is in love w/ me and ive loved him since i was 7. Love i so confusing as is life, but now i feel like a itchbay! I didnt want to hurt keith, but being w/ him was hurting me, and also my best friend. God my life sux big monkey balls! I just wanna Die! My heart i storn into so many slithers. it feels like my heart i sa mirror that someone punched n shattered out of anger! I cant stop all this pain. i hate myself and love and life! But i kno i have to go on. i'm sure someday all this will lead me the right way! I wish keith would understand that the reason i did this is bc of me and not him. That im under to much stress n i dont wanna put him through it. Have him have to carry me through the mess of my life! I told him if we're ment to be then we'll come together again and that i still wanted to be friends. I love him soo much, but i belive that it was time to let him go. Like they say if you love someone or something let it go, if it loves you it'll come back if it were ment to be. Idk imma go n cry my eyes out somemore! crying stressed crying