Dear Journal,
It's been a while since I wrote something.
First off, a lot has.. Changed..
For instance, Hikaru... After being put through... A lot... Emotional stress, things finally started to go back to "normal" around here. Of course, I stuck by his side through everything because, romantic feelings aside, he is my brother and the most important thing to me, is his happiness.
So after some... quite emotional events... Things started to get more intimate between the two of us.
The night Hikaru took my virginity was... Perfect...
The evening started off by him telling me he wanted to officially make me his... For some reason, it sends a chill (a good one) through my body when Hikaru says things like that.
To be claimed as his... I love when he calls me his and things like that.
But any way, he was more romantic than I could've ever hoped for. Candles, Rose petals, strawberries and most importantly, himself. He was gently of course, he didn't want to hurt me more than it initially would.
It was perfect.
The entire weekend was perfect, it's a shame we still have to attend school. I'd love to spend more days like that.
I know he doesn't see it, but Hikaru is perfect. And although sometimes I worry that these things will end and he'll move on...
I hold on to each moment I have with him.
Some day, maybe... I'll confess that I not only love him strongly, but that I have fallen in love with him. Just... Not right now, I don't want to mess anything up.
I think that's enough for now, but I'll be sure to update more often.
~sincerely,
Kaoru Hitachiin
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