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Reading these old journals is cringe worthy.
I thought I understood so much, when I understood so little.
I was a mess.
Still am slightly.

I know the present is what is now, and what I need to live in.
I have lost friends.
And gained them.

I have found a lover, and kept the same lover.

Sometimes its sad to think about the friends I lost, sometimes it makes me angry.
People drift. Its normal. Some people eventually find themselves into each others lives.

The past is difficult to remember, thinking of the things you SHOULD have said, or the things you SHOULDN'T have said. There are fragments of yourself you have left behind in the past.

In some ways I am the same, in some ways I'm completely different.

I have learned to let people in and close them off when I feel they're becoming someone I don't want to associate with.

People who you thought would be in your life forever, suddenly disappear.
Some people who you'd never thought you'd speak to again, suddenly reappear.

Do I have great mistakes I've made with people causing them to leave? Yes. Do I regret them? Yes, for the most part. There are things I wish I had done differently, with Lisa. With Kait.

But thats how life has laid itself out for me. You live, You learn, and most importantly you move on.

Live your life to the fullest, and don't let anyone tear you down. It isn't worth the amount of pain. Better yourself if you feel the need and stand up on your two feet and go out there. There's a whole world to see, and a whole new you to discover.

Apologies made to anyone I've upset ever. The friendships (the ones lost, gained, or somewhere who knows) I appreciate. I remember everyone. And I will forever. Everyone I met who was special to me on this webite had a part in my life, and shaped me in someway. Thank you everyone.