I remember this guy I used to like, the guy who I thought is my first love. Who knows? He probably is or isn't. I'm not too sure myself. When I first saw him properly, his eyes caught my attention and I didn't like him back then. No, it wasn't love at first sight or admiration at first sight. Honestly, I just thought his eyes were amazing.
He was beside one of my close guy friends who happen to be his classmate too. Back then, I had a crush on a guy who was in my class. He was cute and it was my first day at highschool so what'd you expect? Ofcourse, I'd like someone. But I wasn't supposed to because apparently, this girl in my class have liked him since elementary. So I was scared shitless. And me being the reasonable one, decided to stop liking that guy but in order to do that I had to transfer my infatuation to someone else. I just blindly chose that guy (my first love) as the replacement. Weeks after, I started to tell my friends about my new crush so that they would tattletale on that scary girl about me liking her crush. I didn't know then that I had become obsessed with my new crush. Every day, I felt the need to see him. It's like my day wouldn't be complete without him.
During the days he's absent, I felt like a walking dead. Literally. It's like going to school as just mainly to see him. I was stupid then, I was a freshman remember?
Then on the mighty weeks of January and back to school, he was absent because he had measles. I was miserable all week and I acted bitchy. Then when he started to attend school again, on his first day back, I was smiling goofily and obviously. I couldn't wipe the smile off my face for a day! I didn't know why so I assumed maybe I a was falling for him.
But he didn't like me back, he's was just playing around. I knew it because the most flirty girl in our school became his girlfriend. I knew I had to get over him. I tried hard and my attraction to him became less. But I still longed for him until now. Just a little bit only though. 4 freaking damn years! But I can't bring myself to hate him. Never. sad
Eophyrhim · Tue Apr 22, 2014 @ 10:45am · 0 Comments |