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Moving...?
I might be moving to Stuttgart, Germany in a few months. At first I was excited because I thought German-American school would kickass. I didn't really think about my friends because I've moved a million times and I hardly missed/talked to any of them ever again. (By the way, it seems like everyone's going homosexual all of a sudden. I don't have a problem with that, but it's weird to be one of the only straight kids in your group. Am I the only one who thinks that?) So, basically, within a month my entire life has kinda changed. Anyway. Today the reality of moving has sunk in. I won't see these people ever again and within months we won't even care. Just like the last six or seven times. The thing is, it doesn't matter wether or not I want to move or stay put. If my dad wants to go, we're going. I can choose to b***h and moan, or I can try to be happy about it. At first I was all happy. I am ready for new scenery, it's been about three years so we've already been in one place for a long time (by my standards; we move every three or four years tops), and besides I have wanted to go live in Germany. It's a fantasic learning experience because it's in the middle of Europe. I can visit most of the countries, pick up a ton of cultures, and be the person I have always wanted to be. Plus I can really learn and use German, which I have been vainly trying to do since kindergarden. This is what I really want. This is my life, if I go to Germany my future will be layed out. First off, American colleges generally accept more overseas applications. So I am pretty much locked in to any college I want if I go to Germany. Second, I'll pick up another language (and one I want to learn at that). That looks really good on a resume, and is useful for the lifestyle I plan to have anyway. Third, I know I will enjoy it at least a little. But can I do it without my friends? I recently learned one of my best freinds might not be able to move. So my three most active best friends will probably be here regardless. When I think of you three, Lindzi, Dan, and Shauna, I don't want to leave. I want to stay right here with you for at least the next three years of my life and just have a kickass time. I wanna screw all the planning and tight-assed stuff and just hang out. I know I can make new best friends quickly, I do it every year... but I love the friends I have now. I love this setup, I love this huge house, do I want to give this up to be alone in an apartment/military-single-family-home in a foreign country? I'm not sure. I'm so torn right now I almost threw up five times today. (Funfact: I swallowed it!). I guess I'm afraid because I can't identify a problem that makes sense. It's a perfect spilt. arg.
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