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The Irony of life

How just when your feeling better about something another thing goes wrong...

How you think you can trust people but they just end up hurting you...

How you think everything is just fine, and you don't see the chaos...

Maybe thats not Irony to some people but to me it is..

My friend just came over, you know what the first thing she said to me was....

"Your Ex is sooo cute"

WHAT!? MY best friend, the irony...

I wake up everyday, dieing inside it feels...

I fight everyday, to keep myself alive...

To not give in, Telling myself it will be better, I'll be happy one day...

I be able to trust again..

But I told myself that I will never trust anyone again...except the people I love...

My friends...

Men only hurt me and use me...My family just insults me and hurts me...

My friends were the true things in my life...Pure and trustworthy...

Once again, I'm wrong....

My best friend of over 6 yrs just talked to me for about a hour about my ex...

She didn't say it but she likes him...

she wants to asked him to her prom...

She didn't ask me if it be ok, if I be uncomfortable with the thought...

She just told me she was going to...

I'm so blind, so weak, but in real life I could kick any persons' a**...

That probably why I start fights, against everyone, to prove I'm no pushover...

When really I'm so weak-hearted...

I have stopped crying all together... I told myself that only the weak cry...

So I don't anymore... And writing is my only way to vent...

And still I'm cold, empty.... People are cruel, life is meaning less and I'm a hollow shell, craved away by the people I let in, thinking I could trust them...

I'm a foolish hollow girl...nothing more....

The Irony....

I thought I could trust those I love, and its not true...

The Irony...