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so daisuke ask me saturday, "what are your plans for today? crashing at my place?". now why something like that would make me so angry, you'll soon find out.

thursday night I set up a schedual to meet with riko or keiko to take her to the hospital friday morning. it wasn't something I wanted to do but I did it anyways. so I get up on friday and keiko and her sister meets me at my house to leave out to go to the hospital. we go only to be disappointed because we can't set up an appointment so that trip was sort of a waist of time. then we ride the bus to my job only to get to the train station and have all of the contents of my wallet spilled out on the tracks... so after me and her sister arrives to 35th and waits for keiko to return. we find out that she decides to jump down by the rails to get my stuff. I freaked out and called her crazy. we finally arrive to my job to get my check so we could all go out to eat pizza capri. I was somewhat thrilled about it until I saw the prices. yeah, once we order, I made them pay 5 dollars each while I paid the other 25. I order a very expensive small deep dish pizza that I decide to save two slices for sergio so he could have a taste of pizza capri. not something I wanted to do but I didn't want to be selfish. it's my best friend for crying out loud. so we leave on seprate ways and I head off to work. and yeah... this is when it all begins...

after work jamie and david, who are good friends of daisuke, wants to go see scary movie 4. I thought that'd be fun but I couldn't go because I had to go home and give my mother some money. well also letting daisuke know that my phone was dead eariler at work, I didn't know how I'd reach him because I knew he was going to go. well actually he said no and that he wanted to go home. safe for me to assume that he might be coming with me right? wrong. as soon as we stepped out of work they each grab one side of his body and drag him away. I begin to follow while holding to pizza box that I had to remind daisuke twice was his. I was going to help him until I noticed that they weren't even trying hard to pull nor was he trying hard to escape. they let him go and then resumed again once we left the parking lot. my bus was coming so I handed the pizza box to jamie and watched them walk away. no good bye, no thank you, and biggest of all no "what are you plans for tonight"... so I make my trip home and give my mother her money. I then comense to checking my paypal account and charging my phone for a bit. I left out at 9:35pm telling my mother I was going to spend the night at daisuke's house like I always do, every weekend. problem with that was, daisuke was at the movies with his friends I desperately wanted something to do. it was a great night and I was just anxious to enjoy it. so I jump on a bus and head downtown, that way I can, enjoy myself, meet daisuke when he gets out the theater, and go home with him to catch some z's since I was up eariler that morning. we both had to be at work at the same time and plus I had a lot of clothes at his house now so I wouldn't have to worry about changing clothes since I'm over his house all the time as if it was my own. so I head to borders and nate calls me. I talk with him about how much this beautiful friday compelled me to go out and how obiligated I was to respond to it. he laughed and said thats not me since I don't know the first meaning of going out to do anything on a friday. I left it alone and went to mc donalds since borders was closing.

it was now 11 and my phone was dying already. so I hang up and attempt to call daisuke. no answer and my phone goes dead. so not knowing what to do, I immediately begin to head back to his place to either beat him or meet him there. I find a place to charge my phone in the train station and called him when I made it to roosevelt. no response again. so I check my voice mail to see if he called me. 6 new voice mails from keiko. all saying she's going to hurt me on sunday for some reason that I don't know or care for. so I call her to whats wrong and while talking my phone dies again only this time was the final time. so now I'm stuck. I want to be with daisuke and get some good sleep. home would only stress me out because there's no where for me to sleep since the kids had company sleeping over, plus I'm never ever home on the weekends. so my best option was to daisuke's place. once arriving to the warm lobby, since it got colder outside and I completely changed my out fit to summer wear, I sat on the stairs and begin playing mario and luigi partners in time on my blue DS that I love to death. after two hours had gone by, I tell myself that this is point less and that he's probably over khat's house or something. so I leave and catch the 4 cottage grove bus (1:45am). to my suprise, the bus stops at 63rd. I ask if any more are going to my destination (74th) and the bus driver tells me not until 4:30. so now I'm really stuck. it's cold and I'm on 63rd. walking was out of the question because everything pass that point was dangerous and it was freezing. so I search for a pay phone and see a sign pointing up to the green line saying that there are phones there. of course when I look up at the platform it was closed off. so after a little more serching and having success, I come up with 3 plans that could work. plan 1 - go to 35th and use the payphones there to call daisuke's cell until I run out of money. 2 - call nate and crash at his house. have him meet you on 47th redline and walk the rest of the way. 3 - find a place to get warm (daisuke's lobby) get some sleep and catch a bus at 4:30.

So I go along with plan one. now I have to go to the bath room badly and my seasonal allergies are kicking in. I go to wallgreens to by some eye medicine and head to the payphones. plan 1, no one picks up after 3 calls... failure. plan 2, parents are home... failure. Now I only had plan 3. I mean it didn't seem all that bad. just make sure not to get kicked out the lobby and stay there til 4. not bad. so I go behind jewels and relieve myself which I found to be very degrading and relaxed in the lobby. I had to make it seem like I was waiting on someone because people kept coming in and out so needless to say, I didn't get the desired sleep. 4:15 now and so I leave out to catch my bus. nothing comes but the bus heading downtown, so I take it. I'm frozen at this point and is alomost on the brink of going crazy. I couldn't believe that I was stranded like this. then as we passedn14th street, my bus passes on by. I get off at the end of the route and quickly runs over to 7 eleven to get some coffee. I wait for a whole hour just for the next bus to show (5:30). now my mental state has been shot to hell. I'm shivering, sick, tired, depressed and laughing for no reason what so ever. I cuddle up in my shirt trying to get warm and just looks out the window as the stars fade away and sun rises. (6:30) I arrive home to a door thats being closed shut by a long thick rake. I begin to go insane as I unlock the door and constantly tackles the door until my mother opens it. she's wide awake and cleaning because our landlore evicted us and is having someone over to look at the apartment. she ask me to make sure the house upstairs is fixed up. I look around, all dead like and fix a few things up. I grab a tiny cover and my rain coat and collaspe on the floor. (9:40) my cat wakes me up, constantly rubbing it's body against my face. my eyes are all teary and burning, so I go to the mirror and see that my eyes are freak'n red. I take my medicine and fall right back to sleep.

(10:45) now it's time for me to leave out for work. I feel exactly the same but a bit more awake. I get a call from daisuke wondering why I called him at 3 on a payphone. I told him it didn't matter and that I was fine. then I meet up with him while walking to work and he explains to me that he didn't hear the phone. he said he felt it but by the time he went to answer on the third call, it was too late. he said he was at davids house and was sleeping over there. I guess thats when I cracked inside. all this time I was hoping he'd be at home when he was indeed over someone else's house. forget that I come over every weekend and all of that. he wasn't even gonna let me know. as a matter of fact he told me nothing. he left with them without saying a word to me. he never bothered to call and further more, I was seriously stranded. even if plan 1 would've succeeded, he would've been at davids house and I would've still been stuck. so I begin smiling to myself and chuckling. it was just so amazing how bad my luck was and to make it worse, when we got to the cleaners he asked me "what are your plans for today? crashing at my place?". as much as I hate going home on the weekends, I had to say no. I told him I was going home. I don't ever want to spend the night at his place again. for what. so I can go through that situation again. it's bad enough that the previous week he blew me off on friday. I called him and he never picked up and when I went to go meet him at his school, he was on his way to see khat. even though I stopped at his house to drop off my clothes and told him I needed to wash, he was just going to hang out, go home, and basically say " to hell with aozora " and go about his business. I mean when has there been friday that I haven't stayed with him. I mean he completely just forgot about me. every time he's with khat or jamie and david, I cease to exist. I mean he could've at least said thank you for giving pizza yesturday but he left without a word. I mean just simply said nothing and then asked me the next day if I was doing something. what type of bullshit is that. so forget it. I won't come over anymore. since I'm not even worth his time then why should I waste mine. he constantly makes me depressed and I'm tired of it. so I'm just not going to be around that much anymore. I don't want to hang out or do anything like that. talking I could care less about but everything else is just basically over with. I don't even know how I should feel about friday. I mean just bullshit. All I did that whole day was travel on buses and freeze to death. now he's gonna avoid me and ignore me because he hates dealing with other people's problems. thats my best friend for ya. I mean he asked me yesturday if keiko had anything to do with it. I told him no and he said thats all he wanted to know. so yeah, I have no time for this. we're supposed to be friends but man... why does he have to be so bad at being one. I mean sunday people are meeting at my house and a*****e jarrell sets up a tennis thing for him daisuke, reese, and mike on the same freak'n day. what makes that so bad is that he calls me to invite daisuke, knowing I want both of them at my house and of course daisuke says cool, I just gotta see if I'm busy. of course since khat was there, all that meant was, sure I'll go, after I hang out with khat.

btw - if you don't know then I tell you. the first horrible day of my life was when my jaw got broken. just thought I'd add that in.

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