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Spinning in and out of control, with no idea of where I fell from....or where the destination of my landing will me...I can't see in this darkness, pitch black, suffocating, is this all a dream? I hope so.......What is that I see in the distance? A light...?...am I hallucinating...? What do I see....the truth...the lies...or just me...am I truly that blind...that the obvious remains hidden...when it's thrown right in front of me....Will I continue to fall...? Will I let this darkness consume me...? Or can I get the strength to swim to the light...to beat this darkness...this lie...I will not let it win.....I..Must...Win...I must...be the one who over comes this obstacle...this element that eats me up from the inside out....turning me foul...angry...hateful...despicable...Must not let it win...I swim with my strength...but to no avail...I push..I flail...I kick...I punch...I shove...I run...Anything to get to the light...To escape the dark...This endless night...but nothing works...It feels like hands grab me...pulling me back...bound to eat me...But a shadow appears...a cloaked figure...she stands before me...her face hidden...My saving grace...she grabs my wrist....and pulls...tugging...yelling at me to never give up...but I feel myself sagging to my knees...my strength drained...But her words tear through the weakness that consumes me...that devours me into its cold grips of sorrow and pain...and shoves it away....her voice brings me strength....pushing me to my feet....feeling as though I am on solid ground though all of it's black...feeling as though the air is lightening, even though the wind has gone slack....I run...sprint...whoop with joy...pulling her along...but she starts to sag behind...I stop and turn....seeing her trip and fall...as the hands grab her...they drag and clutch...tug and tear...She screams and I run back but stop in my tracks with the look she gives me...the look of pleading confidence...to go on and not be stopped...to prove that I myself am strong without her help...but I smile...and run towards her...stomping the hands and pulling her into my arms...running with her in my arms....panting in exhaustion and adrenaline flying off the charts...my confidence soaring...My grin spreading...as it grows...and she stays with me...in my arms...giving me strength...to show the courage...the courage that I had wished for...I was scared...fearful of the darkness....but I knew I would make it with her with me....the hands grab my legs and trip me...I go tumbling down the way....falling towards the light with no feeling of the ground anymore...the ability to right myself gone only with the light to guide me on which way to face....her hand in mine we fall through the space.... It rushes towards me...letting out a final scream I fly through it, and splash into the water...it's blue beauty envelopes me as I drift in it, with her still with me...I pull her to shore..feel her breath becoming shadow...her body begins to fade...it soon fades among the waves...I stand on shore...watching in silence as the waves take her away, I turn to face the land I've hit...taking in it's beauty I look up at the cloud...and see her smile...I never saw it before...but I didn't have to....it was the hooded girl...my guardian angel...she pulled me out of the black...she pulled me to my feet....now she remains above...always looking out for me..I look at down the beach and see a gray stone...walking towards it I see it's for a grave...I smile and touch it gently...knowing the one below is dear to me....I stand up tall...straighten my back...look down at it once more...and turn to walk away...wandering down the beach head I turn back on last time...giving a fleeting look towards the stone and smile...as the light above rejuvenates me...making me grand...making me great...making me strong...helping me see straight...I don't cast my eyes down for I am not inferior...I am simply me...the only one who can me...a one of a kind...the one that is unique...the thing that makes me....I will forever stand tall...never giving up...never letting the darkness get me...forever I will gain...I am happy now...glad to be me...not ashamed as I once was...but overjoyed just to see what I can be...
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