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I used to think growing up was never going to happen to me. I was going to remember all the small stuff that made me happy (Rule Number 32: Enjoy the little things). I was going to keep my childishness. I was going to be different from the rest. But I realized that changing and growing up has nothing to do with myself; it has to do with everyone else. I realized that people happen, and they make you change. It's not a voluntary thing. You have to change and "get older" because if you don't, your soul will break. So you turn from being a free fun-loving little tyke and turn into....well, it depends on your life on what you turn into. I got to be a skeptical sadistic b***h because well kindness from others wasnt a strong suit in my life. Being surrounded by liars and contradictions does that to a person. But I guess I am growing up. Things that use to make me smile dont anymore. And just slowly by slowly, growing up is just seeing the world without its new sheen, its looking around as seeing the truth written on people's faces as something else comes out of their mouth, its seeing the world as it truly is...and it sucks.