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Date: 450 B.C
Location: Isreal

seeing your own death is only the very beiginning of your life. even though, you may not be able to live it as long as you would like. things will happen that will threaten the length of your life. sometimes, those things never end.

how do you know you are dying? you feel your heart beginning to slow it pace, and your vison becomes more blurry as time progresses. you start to go numb, and sure enough, you lose feeling of the world around you. your blood stops flowing through your veins and every thing inside you shuts down for the eternal sleep it is about to enter. then , your hearing is the last of every thing in your dying mind to go. every sound becomes muffled until there is a never ending silence around you, eating away at you, and surrounding you in complete and total darkness.

Date: 300 B.C
Location: Egypt

Why have i been treated with such a harsh hand, i will never understand. why i was pushed out from the one thing i knew and loved, i forget not. though the answers still inger upon the tounges of silent and the dead.

This is what it was like. to feel my self falling into nothing but the immortal darkness that consumes all that enter it. you feel nothing around you. like you are a baby in its mothers womb. there is darkness tht eats you alive.

Then, your adrenaline starts to rush. you feel it cursing through your veins like hot water. its a great sensation at first, then it becomes to hot that the adrenaline is to much to bare. you want to rip it out of your body to make the pain and suffering go away. but it is still there. your heart rate increases so much that it feels like your chest is going to explode.

Then there is nothing. you wae up to a great pain ripping through your entire body. you ache so much that it hurts to even breath. when your eyes focus you see that you are on the ground, pinned actually. there is no chance of you moving.

When you are capable to move, it still hurts, but not as much as i did. you stand up a look at the world around you. you dont know where you are or even how you got there. you look back. you see that your wings of white have turned into the darkest black known to any one. at your feet, lay a halo that used to float above your head. it has now fallen from the sky and lay like scrap metal at your feet.

you pick it up. but it burns you. you drop it again. and this time, it shatters into many little pieces. to may that you cant put them back together again. you look up at the skies to see that they are dark and gray.

lightning flashes and thunder rolls across the heaven you once knew. rain pours down and it is so cold that it feels like ice picking away at you.

you know you dont belong in thos strange world. why you have come here is the same reason and question that i am trying to figure out. and how do we get back? i dont think we will ever find out.

Date: 220 B.C
Location: Egypt

i can feel it. something good is going to happen. its shaking every bone in my immortal body. the hot adrenaline starts to rush again. but this time, it didnt burn. it actually felt kinda good.

i have been watching the stars out in this hot desert land. they tell a story, a prophecy. something that will save us all. it will send all those who have Fallen and all those who are lost within this strange world. we will be back in the place that we once knew. the home that was once ours.

bright light that shines like gold and the sweet smell of spring is my immortal home. or, at least, it once was. now, i have been abandoned to hell for all eternity. but once this prophecy is fufilled, every thing will return back to normal. hopefully.

Date: 1 A.D
Location: Bethlahem Isreal

I thought we were all supposed to be saved. I have waited over four hundred years for my life to be restored. i watched on that cold December night. some of my brothers and sisters appeared out of the clouds above. the familiar smell of spring filled my nose and there was a warm light radiating off of them.

i looked up at the skies at the, seeing if any thing would happen. but nothing ever did. they all just floated in the sky with there great white wings. i looked back at mine. mine where still black as night and heavy. i saw their halos floating above their heads. i remembered mine. the one that burned me as i tried to pick it up when it fell.

nothing has happened. i am still abandoned on this ground. as i look, i see that a mere child has a halo shining greater then my brothers and sisters. why does this earthling shine greater then all the rest? what does it mean? is there no answer for me and all the rest like me? havent i waited long enough?