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I'm really just looking forward to the party tomorrow,
I hope it's hella ridic.

Everyone just wants to do some E,
I just wanna live fast,
party hard,
make money, be a star. ):

not to be all millionaires-esque but yeah,
I dunno I don't think I'd need drugs to enjoy myself?

just enough 4loko,
loud music,
and people trying to keep my attention.

I can't believe the kids in my english class honestly thought i'd skip for three days straight?
lately i feel like such a douche for never being in that class,
especially because we have all this group work,
but really? english 10 does NOT interest me.

i'd rather just enjoy life,
and maybe be in an english class with all my friends?

the kids in all of my classes over the years are just people i won't and don't want to remember.

it's kind of sad. :/

i dunno what i'm looking for in a classroom,
because i don't even remember everyone from the days where we sat all day side by side and everyone just wanted to be friends.

i can't remember disliking a single person until 5th grade,
and i only hated her because she was moving away.

so awk. so berry awk.

i think i've always just been afraid of losing the people i value,
and i remember 5th grade is the first time someone really made a remark on my sexuality.

idk i guess 5th grade was just a ******** weird, awakening year.

even back then i felt ashamed for liking girls i guess?
i'm glad that's not the case though, not anymore,
that'd ******** blow.

i wonder how much more i'm going to change,
but not really,
and try to prove to people i'm not the same ******** person they've always known.