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my bf is great, though I have been having some trust issues lately. see, he's broken quite a few promises lately and I never really made a big deal about it until now. though it hurt way deep down in my serabelim (lol ah Dane Cook x]) so a few days ago I exploded on him about everything he'd done to me when I found out he was talking to someone he promised me he wouldn't a while back and I nearly dumped him. in hind sight, I probably should have. but he begged me not to and since then he's been waiting on me hand and foot and has done so much to earn my trust back. but so far it's still not enough. I want to trust my boyfriend again, and tonight he took me outside when I told him I suspected he was still doing stupid stuff behind my back, and told me this. "I know I broke your trust, and that I have to work very hard to get it back. but you need to try to trust me again. you may not believe me but I will make you believe me, I don't care what I have to do." so I think I can trust him, and in retrospect what happened shouldn't be a big deal. its not like he cheated on me or anything. but so many promises were broken within a period of 4 days and sometimes, 'sorry' just isn't enough.

bottom line, I love having a bf that takes responsability for his mistakes and works his a** off to make things right.
I do love him so, and even though my mind is a bit screwy right now, I know that he loves me. =]

have a great evening everyone. thank you for your time. -huggles-