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People say the first step is knowing something's wrong
Well, I have known what was wrong all along
knowing that you arn't who you want to be
takes just looking in the mirror and not knowing who you see
That part is easy, its changing thats hard
It's not like the answer is an index card
It's hard to change how you've been raised in life
Maybe it would be easier to end it all with a knife
to end it would save many people pain
I didnt mean to hurt them. I am filled with shame
Shame that i let myself become who i am
I'll have to destroy this monster by my on hand
It's taken control, i cant overcome this thing
because i know how much damage it can bring
so while it's asleep or unaware of my plans
Ill end its reign over me with this knife in my hands